I'm considering abandoning Descent. I'm never going to be good enough for people to like my ISG.
That's a switch within our thinking process which keeps us from really checking reality.
'Good enough for' attempts to predict what others will think about our work, before...mostly even letting our work be released.
At extremes, this includes a spiral of self-doubt from that initial guess. If in doubt, get an audience confidant. Speak to them about your future releases. ASK them with faith in their criticism (ask to be constructive too), and check back on how your work really is reviewed.
Because I like your ISG, and am totally unaware on how it 'isn't gud enuf 4 u folks'.
Then are there things elsewhere that you don't like that aren't at your home?
Why I ask:
The idea that you "want to go home for something there" doesn't follow from "want to go home". If you don't want to be there for something present there then maybe you want to be there because your home has an absence of something you don't like. It could also be a bunch of little things instead of 1 (big?) thing.
The point I was trying to make was, yes I have olga here. But I also had her at work... And now she's tired and we really can't talk.
So I have no one to really talk to closely.
I wish I had someone really close to me that wanted to actually talk with me
If it makes you feel better, I could say I relate.
From loneliness and fatigue and us being very focused on the current situation, we'd think nobody wants to approach us...because its not happening. From experience, I found going to my friends and talking to them about stuffs would pretty much help me punch my self-doubt and personal loneliness that way, and...like, being open to them despite my deep feelings like it may not be 'reciprocated', or...reluctant(?)? (When I say 'I could relate', I'm thinking much about our culture trait here--
it's loosely translated as shame, and pretty much is the trait which says 'I'm assuming your reaction and now I'm shy.').
I've also learned that many people pretty much like to talk to others
But then its also at times not communicated. [ie It could be simply said, 'hey buddy, talk to me
You seem down and I wanna help.' Which I've found is a very common thing most friends do. But...is implied rather than known out loud. I think.]
Apologies ahead for my messiness