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[Jerick]

So there's a referendum here in Ireland this month about same sex marriage and the no campaign is in full swing. Ads before youtube videos, posters on the street lights, on the bill boards, full page ads in papers, leaflets in my letterbox. It's everywhere I look lately spouting bigoted nonsense.

A child needs a father and a mother vote NO!

Isn't civil partnerships enough? Don't redefine marriage vote No!

A child needs it's mother for more than 9 months. Vote no to surrogacy!

(WTF surrogacy isn't even what's being voted on.)

It's black and white; a real marriage is loving, lasting and fruitful

I'm not even kidding these are all direct quotes. I suppose I shouldn't be surprised, some of these are from the group that opposed abortion reform (even after our restrictive abortion laws lead to someone's death) by putting up pictures of dead fetuses everywhere they could. My faith in humanity is at an all time low right now.

[MaximumZero]

I'd like to go crawl into a hole and die, please. A mental mistake just cost me a bunch of money that I don't have and can't get. I'm royally fucked.

[Arx]

D: Good luck, MZ. I hope things take a turn for the better.

[scrdest]

My dad appears to have unwittingly broken the rule about location of one's reproductive organs and crazy. His current wife stated, verbatim, that she's considering hiring false witnesses to accuse him of domestic abuse.

[scrdest]

My dad appears to have unwittingly broken the rule about location of one's reproductive organs and crazy. His current wife stated, verbatim, that she's considering hiring false witnesses to accuse him of domestic abuse.

Hokay.

If she said that to you, probably a good idea to start carrying around some recording device when near her, just in case. Evidence against her would be very useful.

That's what I told him too.

[Spehss _]

Bluh. Had a hard time going to sleep last night. Was laying in bed for an hour or more, tossing and turning and thinking.

Mostly thinking about how my life is pointless and I'll never amount to anything and I'll never get out of this rut of depression and that the only option left is to kill myself. Woo. Late night emotions.

Don't feel as bad now, in the morning, but still.

[Rose]

I'm sad that the rage thread us gone. I could really use a place to vent right now.

[MaximumZero]

You can shoot me a PM if you need to.

[GiglameshDespair]

Only place I can find 750ml Curiosity Cola bottles is Tesco. I'd be happy about that, except I never go to Tesco, nor does anyone I know, like hell I'm wasting fuel on going to Tesco and I don't even know the way to any Tescos. Even more irritating, it's actually cheaper there.

Waitrose?

[Avis-Mergulus]

My fekking cup broke and now there's fekking coffee with fecking sugar all over the fecking kitchen.

Fuck me, I am way too sober for this shit.

It was my favorite cup, too. It was huge (almost 0.5L), made of unglazed pottery, and had a large vaguely Novgorodian/Suzdaline - looking bird carved into it. I've had it for all of two months, and now it's gone.

RIP cup. You shall be missed.

[Jopax]

Utterly unproductive day, when there's no excuse for it to not be productive. No idea what's wrong with me today, the past few days I can somewhat rationalise because I was feeling shit, but I was still capable of doing something. Today, I was feeling relatively fine, better than most of the past couple of weeks honestly, and I did almost nothing worthwhile.

Fucking procastrination

[WillowLuman]

Our old cat died today. At least folks told me about it, unlike when my tarantula died last year.

[Bauglir]

Welp, eyes just glazed over. I cannot finish this exam tonight! Fortunately, it's not due till Sunday, but the hardest bits yet remain.

EDIT: And I absolutely need an A on it because of the flubbing that went into the big project kerjigger.

[Worldmaster27]

I fucked up.

Longish story short, my parents are threatening to take away my computer and phone - which would effectively cut me off from you all and a few of my friends. In addition, they mentioned that maybe they should send me to sunday school in order to 'correct' my lack of religion.

In any case, my mom has told me I should leave my friends and focus on only schoolwork because friends will bring down my grades as I obviously can't maintain a 90 or above with them in my life. Which in case they haven't noticed, I have. I get that she doesn't want me to be friends with people who she considers "inappropriate" but whatever.

If I suddenly disappear it will likely be because my mother has figured out that I'm not going to abandon my friends in favor of loneliness and people I dislike.

[inEQUALITY]

I don't know why I'm going to tell strangers on the internet about this, but honestly, I don't know where else to get all this off my chest.

Almost three years ago, the day I graduated high school, I left my high school sweetheart. I absolutely loved her, like no one else. And I'd been with a dozen girls before her and half as many after, at least. Hell, nothing else I've ever felt for a woman can really be called love compared to what I felt for her. Only woman I've ever been in love with. But things had just not been quite right for a month or two, and it all came to a point, so I ended it that night.

Maybe I shouldn't have done it so easily without trying to fix things, but with struggling to overcome having sabotaged myself for three years of High School to actually manage to graduate and problems at home, I was beyond stressed out, and I couldn't think straight. I needed room to breathe. And so that was it. A year and a half down the drain.

Naturally, the next few months were rough, but I got over it. Or I thought I had.

Today I came to a realization. I never stopped loving her, or missing her, but instead had just buried it so far down I didn't even know it was there still. And for almost three years, I thought I'd moved on, but that hurt and guilt and everything else has been festering. I've been going from fling to unsuccessful fling in those three years and I never knew why they just never amounted to anything at all. And now I think I realize why.

So I've cried. Hard. I probably still have a bit more left tonight. Because I realize I have to deal with these emotions now or it will only get worse. And it hurts a lot. I'm hoping that coming to terms with my emotions instead of just "manning up" and ignoring it might actually get me back to where I need to be. Because this feels like hell right now. And I just don't know what else to do but let the waterworks flow. And to tell some strangers on the internet why I'm crying for the first time in months.