Because of how much my emotions are mixed right now, upset is a better term for this, but I'm saddened and frustrated at the same time as heavily disheartened. Why? I have a final project I have to finish for Javascript that's due on april 26th. No problem, right? Well, me being a f***ing idiot, I decided to help a buddy out and assist him with this final project. Well, jokes on me because by helping I mean doing all the coding myself because he has no idea what he's doing and the entirety of the code I told him to do was 2 lines that I thought was going to take longer and he asked the teacher AND another student to get the code and I STILL had to explain it to him.
So here's the big thing; I added a thing to my code, its a card counter, and I added a function that causes the program to take into account the fact if you come across another card that was already named and then goes back into the list and adds the additional amount to it. So note that before I added this, it worked flawlessly. Now, I added this function and now I have successfully managed to crash my web browser, and all I got was there's a problem on a certain line but it doesn't say what kind of error it is. Now, my usual routine for this is post it on here, but since this is the final project, the joke's on me because if anyone copies my code online, not only do they get a big fat 0, so do we. So unless I get permission from my teacher (and give her proof I am Highmax...) I can't get help for this except from her.
Well, that doesn't seem that bad now, does it? But shes known to instead of answering her emails through emails, she's known to answer you IN PERSON. LIKE ON THE DAY ITS DUE. So here I am in a big panic because I have to debug this code, and then work on part 2. And then I get to the second part which is code a specific thing and what happens? It stops working and says a list doesn't exist when it does. I'm literally on the verge of either breaking down and crying or putting my fist through a wall... And I'm not only upset internally as this nags the hell out of me, but I'm getting visibly agitated, as my mom thinks that after an incident with my dad telling us to f*** off that I'm pissed off at him (he said it because he thought we were talking shit about him) when I'm just agitated about my f***ing code.
So why am I sad? Because I have a major project to finish with a guy who I know is having a REALLY REALLY REALLY hard time with this and I can't get help from on our project, our code doesn't work and I can't figure out why its crashing my web browser, let alone the code just stopping. And to top it all off, I can't ask for help except to my teacher who, though adept at debugging, takes forever to answer her emails, if she answers them at all. Its that feeling of helplessness that's really hitting me right now and the worst part is if I don't get this done right, I'm taking this guy with me, so I can't go "f*** it, here's my code, give me as many marks as you seem fit" which, though a liable option for me since I'm still plowing through this class with an 84 at the moment, I HAVE to do good on this for the sake of my buddy who, if he fails this, I'm 90% sure that he's going to be held back because this is a mandatory class to pass.