My Cruiser and all the shit inside of it (including my laptop) was stolen last week and i only just got a new laptop (luckily my Cruiser was found less than 3 hours later in Timaru). That teaches me not to expect to be able to leave it my Land Cruiser locked up in the center crossing at busy supermarket car park (My ex-employer) in the center of Ashburton, New Zealand and not expect it to be stolen.
Then to top it all off a so-called "Best Mate" still hasn't paid me back the $375 NZD I lent him about 9 months ago! He has cut off all contact with me now since I start talking to him normally (with him responding), and then ask him about the money. He never responds after that! And I cant go annoy him for it as he lives in Timaru.
And ill need that money to pay the insurance company the excess which is $300.
And did i mention that two of my best mates that have been going out for over 18 months broke up the other week. Lets call them A (which is a girl) and N (Which is a male) one of them which i keep in regular contact with, A, ended it and yet didnt tell me yet we talk every 2 or so days for hours on end via text. it has my other mate, N, that told me when i asked him why he was so distraught. he said he thought id have been told. so i spend about 6 or so hours (ignoring my other best mates which were at my place for a gaming day), trying to get them to realize where it all went wrong so they can still remain friends which one wants, N, and the other, A, wants him to fuck off. This situation they are in has got me distraught. they are/were/whatever perfect for each other. yet it still ended. apparently A was sick of N trying to fix everything. I helped N understand where it went wrong and he seems better now but its hard to judge over text messgaes. I barely get to see N even though he lives in the same town as I do because he works during the days and I work nights so i cant properly help him get over it and support him. A is at uni several hundred kms away yet returned and broke it off during the uni holidays.
I do this with every mate, offer them advice when their relationships with another is floundering and yet i couldn't save a friendship i had a long time ago. I still have no-one for me to properly talk on a regular basis about what actually is going through in my head to since all my mates either go to uni or work days. also im scared what they will think if they know the true extent of my fucked up mind
I flunked level 3 NCEA (entry level for uni) yet i dream of being a paleontologist.
I work night shifts so i don't have to face the world and socialize yet i wish i could talk to someone...
Am I Fucked Up or what???