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[Tack]

I have the thing with the lying and the marks dropping and the lack of memory and the manipulative tendencies. But I don't have so much of the trust issues (to a degree).
I think it's something else. Let me know if you figure out what it is, and I'll vice-versa you.

[scrdest]

It occurs to one that I might have a problem. I trust literally nobody. This is why I end up awake at midnight, coming up with plausible explanations for the welts on my arm. This is why I can manipulate people without them realizing anything. This is why I can lie without giving the slightest hint that I have a problem.

This is why my marks have dropped. This is why I don't remember things any more.

And I'm pretty sure I can't fix it.

I can't quite follow the link between trusting people and remembering things...?

[Arx]

I feel like I'm slowly going insane because of my apparent inability to open up even slightly. Not being able to talk to anyone about problems doesn't help solve them, and problems breed problems.

[IronTomato]

I feel like I'm slowly going insane because of my apparent inability to open up even slightly. Not being able to talk to anyone about problems doesn't help solve them, and problems breed problems.

I know that feeling.

[Arx]

It doesn't help that I know I'm probably being at least somewhat melodramatic about it. Hopefully most of it passes.

[scriver]

I have the ills and they won't let go of me.

[AlleeCat]

So, all I'm trying to say is: I hope I wasn't a hurtful asshole to you, and I probably liked you a lot more than you knew at the time even if you really were a jerk.

You weren't. I definitely remember liking you. I just remember you and I had an argument over math one time and I obviously didn't know what I was talking about.

If you still can't remember and you really need to know, PM me and I'll tell you.

[rabidgam3r]

Practicing my guitar when all of a sudden, Youtube goes bugfuck crazy.
oh.
i guess i wont practice then, YOUTUBE
>:C

[Vector]

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[hops]

Yay!

* Objective proudly puts on Vector's "You're Dumb" badge.

Also I'm not exactly getting therapy, but counseling count I guess? My counselor at the very least scratch my urge for meaningful human contact which I don't trust other humans to satisfy.

[Willfor]

My dad died about 3 hours ago.

Just having to keep myself distracted right now, otherwise I just end up getting more upset.

Condolences. That's terrible. :(

[Tawa]

Rest in peace, greatorder's dad.

[AlleeCat]

My dad died about 3 hours ago.

I'm really sorry. I understand all too well what you're going through. My mom died about 10 years ago.

[GiglameshDespair]

My condolances, Greatorder

[Bauglir]

Here's something to help with the distracting. I've been through the whole dad-loss thing once that I can remember (and once I can't; my mom has had some shitty luck in choosing partners). Shit sucks - I might have more to say, but it sounds like you don't want to hear about it right now. So just let me know when, if ever, would be a good time.

Good luck.