I still don't quite get what the difference between crush and friend, when not considering anything sexual in the equation.
Honestly, it's hard to classify Friendship or Love as different, but there's some Greek words that help me think about them in better detail:
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Agape: "Good Will" love. Felt towards people we empathize with, wish well upon, or seek to help. Charity or unconditional love.
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Philia/Storge: "Trust/Closeness" love. Felt towards people we are comfortable, familiar, and open with, such as friends or family. Comradery and playfulness.
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Eros: "I want to do kissy things with and/or get into this person's pants" love. Felt toward people we admire or find beautiful. Attraction or infatuation.
When these forms of love are one sided or unspoken, they're Crushes (Eros), and whatever the one-sided version of Agape and Philia would be called... Charity and Admiration? When they exist between two people, they create Romances (Eros), Friendships (Philia), and other relationships that are separate from either individual's feelings. So, Relationships/Friendships are the actual bond between people, while Crushes/Attraction/Admiration are the feelings at either end.
It's kind of annoying how many people expect me to be super manly and stuff.
Ugh... I don't fit the traditional Male thing either, and I've been in that boat too. I put on a show for everyone when I was young, doing my best to fit "normal guy" behavior and all, but eventually I got sick of the dissonance between my feelings and how I was expected to act. It was a huge relief to throw out those expectations and just be Myself, whatever that involved. Even if it meant dealing with the occasional critical comments, confused or judgmental friends, unwanted advances from gay guys, and homophobic slurs.
It's caused (and still causes) some stress in my life, but my family and close friends learned to deal with it. Over the years, I even taught some of the men in my family and friend circles to be less worried about gender role crap too, hug each other more freely, and feel more comfortable saying unmanly things like "cute" and such. I think it's a win overall. :3