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[smeeprocket]

Oh look, six days into the new year and I'm already violently depressive, woohoo!

As an added bonus the fast food dinner I had is hitting my stomach hard and I can feel the acid in my throat ffs.

I don't feel the fast food thing, but yea things have been bad for me lately.

Like trying to find a clinic to check into bad. I'm just sure it won't help, and they'll make me take my piercings out. :/

[Helgoland]

2:30, doing topology. Fuck, I need to do something about myy procrastination.

[Yoink]

God damn I am tired today. Especially now, after lugging a box of cheap energy drink back from the shop.
Time to start drinking. Heavily.

[Helgoland]

4:10, time to go to bed. Class starts at 8. Heavy drinking starts at about 11, I'd say. PM, though, so I'll have to keep going for a while.

[smeeprocket]

I miss drinking. And cigarettes, definitely cigarettes.

[Cryxis, Prince of Doom]

I'm sad if I still have school tomorrow
The wind chill is supposed to be -30~-20 degrees F and I have to walk 1~2 miles outside I between classes.
I don't want frozen snot sickles coming out of my face before tomorrow's school day is out

[Yoink]

4:10, time to go to bed. Class starts at 8. Heavy drinking starts at about 11, I'd say. PM, though, so I'll have to keep going for a while.

Godspeed.  o_o7

[itisnotlogical]

I miss drinking. And cigarettes, definitely cigarettes.

I wish cigarettes did anything for me. The craving/indulgence cycle might provide a weird form of artificial stress relief.

Also, most of my friends have completely different schedules to me this term and one isn't even going, so I'm among strangers in one class and I have only one friend in the other, until the end of term.

[smeeprocket]

I miss drinking. And cigarettes, definitely cigarettes.

I wish cigarettes did anything for me. The craving/indulgence cycle might provide a weird form of artificial stress relief.

Also, most of my friends have completely different schedules to me this term and one isn't even going, so I'm among strangers in one class and I have only one friend in the other, until the end of term.

they stress you out more, and you're only going to get a noticeable affect the first few times. It's an addiction without much of a high, other than the need to continue to fulfill that addiction. Despite cigarettes stressing you out, the fulfillment of said addiction brings you great relief... so it's sort of an endless self-perpetuating cycle. One that involves large amounts of phlegm and possibly cancer, and a terrible smell that clings to all your clothing.

Cloves were my favorite. But I used to smoke these $2 cigarettes (around the time when camels would be about $5) that were horrible and I fucking loved it.

I quit because I had heart surgery and cigarettes are bad for your heart. I would smoke cloves casually, maybe one every few days, but I would not be able to control myself. I'd suck down the first pack in a day or two.

[Vector]

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[smeeprocket]

2:30, doing topology. Fuck, I need to do something about myy procrastination.

LOL. That's going to be me next week.


I just found out about Marion Zimmer Bradley, co-founder and namer of the Society for Creative Anachronism and author of The Mists of Avalon's child rape thing (along with harboring her serial child rapist husband). Just... fuck. This is after a day spent reading about concentration camps.

I don't know the full details of that last part but reading it made me a little sick.

[Lord Shonus]

I just found out about Marion Zimmer Bradley, co-founder and namer of the Society for Creative Anachronism and author of The Mists of Avalon's child rape thing (along with harboring her serial child rapist husband). Just... fuck. This is after a day spent reading about concentration camps.

First I've heard of this, but IIRC there's a few elements in what I've read of her work (she's always been on the periphery of my reading list, but never really made it in) that make this surprise me less than I would like.

[smeeprocket]

jesus that needed a spoiler with a tag: trigger warning: child rape on it.

Excuse me while I go empty my stomach into the toilet.

[Vector]

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[smeeprocket]

I read it anyway (the worst parts had already been said.) I always read it anyway. It's like coming into a room when a rape scene is on tv, damage has been done, no matter how quickly you get out of there.

(No I'm not blaming you.)