I have no idea what motivates me.
I got up early today to accompany a friend while she gets some documents sorted out. It's the earliest I've gotten up in weeks, and it was a fairly productive outing, managed to get myself some really good crackers along the way, and generally had a good day out. Yet as soon as my friend went home I go straight back to my usual habit of lying around doing absolutely nothing but browsing various web forums. I won't lie, I enjoy doing so, otherwise I wouldn't do it, and the various quests and forum games I'm involved in are interesting and such. But I can't ever bring myself to do anything else. Whenever I have free time I just do that, and it's starting to get criticized by my family for it. I shouldn't read the internet all the time, I should go out and meet with a friend (of which I have 2 within a day's travel). I should go out and go to a store. I should go out and meet people, I should buy people presents, I should etc. But I can't find any motivation to do any of that; can't really make myself do anything besides do karate, read, or on the rare occasion that a friend wants to do something with me, that, and even those have a minimum of effort put in. Dunno why I feel so damn disconnected from everyone, but I am, and it's making me wonder how other people manage to do all the things they do on a daily basis.