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Anything in particular happen recently? Have you been doing a lot of work/been under a lot of pressure? Or has a general malaise and apathy just descended (as it tends to from time to time)?
No. Wouldn't surprise me if I have chronic depression or something. I'm stressing a bit over the question of what the hell I'm going to do with my life, what I'm going to major in, what job I'm going to get, etc. And I don't enjoy any of my hobbies outside of just playing games anymore. Considering how much emphasis I put on actually doing creative productive shit and accomplishing things, that in itself is depressing. Being depressed does not help the whole issue with not enjoying hobbies, obviously, so that's a cycle right there. And I still have no real friends, not that I've really made any effort. Still feels bad when hardly anyone talks to you or cares. There's various other vague aspects but I'm having a hard time coherently listing it all.
I'm just fed up with my continued existence. It's dissatisfying. I literally have no hope for my future except that eventually I'll die. I have no idea what I'll do with my life, I have no friends or any contacts or any plans for after college or any plans for college and I don't even know what I'm doing in college at this point. Dropping out is failure, but continuing seems just as hopeless and leading to failure. My life just seems bound for failure. I don't want to bother continuing when it all seems pointless.
ugh. I don't know what the problem is. The problem is lots of things. And I don't see any way out of the problem.
God I hate getting on here and talking about it. But I already brought this up, gg me.