I'm currently beating myself up over a minor traffic mistake. Just forgetting to look both ways at an intersection. There was no near-collision, I just went through it and realized my mistake, and promptly realized that an 'alternate reality me' is now dead.
I was just so focused on the rising morning sun, I was doing everything in my power to overcome its blinding glare so I could look and make sure that nothing was coming from my left, so focused on it that I completely forgot to check my right which had nothing obstructing it. Just makes me feel profoundly stupid and foolish.
* Tiruin delivers hugs via bicycle.
You're alive here.
And you remember what went wrong...
*Collapses to the ground and cries for an hour*
Why can't I just sleep? Please. I'm so done with today.
Not even 2am and I've already spent an hour crying.
I would be willing to go to that Objective.
When I was younger I suffered from what was, I suppose, minor insomnia.
I couldn't get to sleep until about 3am when I had to get up at 7am. No matter how many times I went to bed early and stuff.
Probably didn't help my internal clock, either.
I've had those times before. They were usually when there was something bugging me pretty much but in the background of my consciousness. Hopefully it ain't that, there?
... Hello insomnia. Did you miss me?
Use the time to think about things
...I do that ._. It helps.
I do, and usually it makes me cry. Paranoia, anxiety, depression, they aren't good companions for thought.
Hmm, given how most (99%) of that lie in thought, why not introduce a positive voice in there? :3
+1 good companion \o/
I try not to do that because when I'm left alone with my thoughts I scare myself. >_>
* Tiruin hands AlleeCat a vocal mimic of everything good she has known in her life.
The area of thought is a great and mystical place o__o It's filled with what exists.