I've never really posted in these threads before; they've always seemed like a pointless emotion circlejerk. As for why I'm posting now... Well, I probably won't if I think too hard about that, so I won't. >.>
So, there's a girl that I had a serious crush on about two years ago, and I had thought that I was pretty much over her. She was visiting me, and we had a very enjoyable time talking. Before too long though, she had to leave, and told me that she had really missed me, and wanted to see me again soon. She gave me a hug. That made me so, so, absolutely happy. Just... wonderful.
I got in a car, and started to drive away. But apparently someone had modified it, somehow, so that the brake wouldn't work, the gas just raised the cruise control, and I couldn't lower it unless I turned the car off. I managed to park without crashing into anything, and as I tried to figure out what was wrong... I realized I was dreaming. Which meant the whole thing with the girl had never happened. She lives forty hours drive away, barely considered me a friend at best, and that fell apart a while ago. I had come to terms with that.
Even so, realizing that right after that surge of happiness was just... 'depressing' doesn't seem to qualify. I've had some terrifying nightmares, but that's a new way for my subconcious to flip me off. And undeniably far more effective. ._.