Supposedly it's summer break, but I haven't been able to relax at all so far.
I just want a single week with fuck all to do, where I can finally get some sleep, read a bit, play some games, meet some friends...
But no, exams dragged on till the third, brother came visiting right after that, I have to do field work all day long the following week where I've yet to find a proper interview partner, I need to deliver two exercises before the end of the week, during which my mother is supposed to come and take me with her, so I can travel with my younger brother to Poland to visit some new acquaintances, but my passport ran out and I haven't had the time to issue a new one. So I probably won't be able to go anyway, which will end up in family drama.
Not that I have the time to go anyway, since I'll need another week of fieldwork, need to write a paper till the end of this month, another one till the end of the next month and 2 more till the end of the month after that.
Along the way I also have to figure out what to do with my life. The best would probably to take a year off and work for a bit, so I can figure something out, get a job and earn some money, work with my therapist, wait for the the terms of application for various educational paths to come around again and study to pass their entrance exams.
And I've still have to explain all of that to my father (my mother knows some of it at least), which is going to be a nightmare.
I just don't know. I'm just so tired with having to deal with all of that myself with only my therapist to talk to (which is currently on vacation so it's not even an option right now).