Ok, found time to write it out.
Ok, to understand it, some backstory.
A while back ago, we went to a fast food place, and got a chicken sandwitch, and when I took a bite of it, I found that it wasn't cooked all the way, and was still very much raw.
This was when I discovered that uncooked meat makes me really nauseous, and I couldn't even look at it without getting queasy and light headed.
I couldn't even sit up straight, so I wasn't able to go in to tell the restraint workers that it wasn't cooked (we were eating in the car) so they had to go in and do it.
Today, they decided to bring this back up, and told me how hurt they were that I wasn't the one to go in and tell them.
Another thing to mention, last night I mentioned how I didn't used to faint at the sight of blood, and thought it was strange that I do now, and I was told to stop being afraid, and get over it. They said that me fainting at the sight if blood is my fault, and that it I would stop letting it get to me, I wouldn't do it.
I've told them that I'm not bothered by fainting at blood, I just thought it was odd since it used to not bother me, and they told me the same thing, to get over it.
Today, the arguement over me getting sick from the uncooked meat was pretty much the same thing, about how I was completely self centered to make them go in and tell them, rather than doing it myself. (For the record, I actually told them to not worry about it, and that I just wanted to go home, but they went in anyway on their own)
Anyway, it upset me that they were basically telling me to stuff down my fears, and they said that it doesn't matter what they say, that I'll take everything as an insult when they're just stating their opinions.
After that, it pretty much devolved into them saying how I make everything out to be against me, and never listen to anyone, and saying that they're afraid to say anything to me because it always turns into an arguement, while I'm sitting there trying to get a word in, and they tell me that I need to stop talking, because they're speaking. Eventually I got so angry that my muscles twitches started getting really bad, and I told them that I need to go sit down before I start involuntarily punching myself like what happened last time. So I tried walking out of the room and they screamed at me, saying "go ahead, run away", and that it's pathetic that I'm getting so upset over what they said was me "abandoning them", back then. So I yelled back "Sorry for being a fucking wimp, then", and walked out because at that point the twitching had got so bad that I ended up punching a wall.
Right now, as I'm typing this, they're sending me texts trying to get me to restart the arguement, and guilting me because I'm telling them that I'm not going to, and they're using that to say I don't care.