Great.
Dad decides that while I'm out taking the dogs out that he wants to look at what I'm doing on my computer.
Looks at my steam chat.
Asks who they are.
"Friends."
"You shouldn't be talking with people you don't know in real life."
Then threatens that if he finds out I'm doing steam chat still, he's going to get rid of Steam.
Another thing to hide from him
This has got me down.
Why am I down?
Because it's yet another social outlet I'm having to hide to keep the fact that I don't have anyone I can truly be
me around. Strangers who I get forced into activities with(Bible camp;Home school groups) where the only gurantee is that most likely I'll know some people there(Bible camp) or it'll be fun(Homeschool groups). I just want to enjoy the people I know as friends, yet whenever I find something I can open up on, I fuck up and my parents find out. Both this site and steam chat among others I've had to 'stop' using. I'm paranoid about everything going wrong one day and I fuck up...
And now I can't steam chat with my
friends. People who I've talked to enough to fucking trust with venting to.
Now I'm forcing myself to stop using it like normal. Now it's yet another thing I have to hide.
Just like my religious beliefs.(Don't care how we came, just make life nice for everyone.)
My sexuality.(Bisexuality, though as I live in a christian home and I was still in the dark on what masturbation was in middle school, I'm not in a position to experiment.)
My fucking internet usage.(I've cleared history of unsavory things before.)
And now... Friends.(Steam chat.)
There's that depression again. Fuck depression.