Gf just broke up with me. Her reasons were she didn't want to loose me, she didn't want us to both be hurt in the end, she's emotionally restrained, we're too close as friends to be more then that, and when I tried doing anything that involved touching her, I reminded her of someone that hurt her because I look like him and apparently act like he did before he hurt her. I think gods are cruel, because here is this beautiful, smart, kind, strong and loving person who would give everything to make someone else's life fine, and thinks and acts similar to me, only to get told by her the above things, and then some. The worst part: I'm 100% certain she is the only woman who can:
a) put up with me
b) understand how I feel/think
c) not hate me for being loyal and protective of those I care about
d) not abuse my kindness
The gods gave me a Valkyrie and said "no you can't have her"
Let Odin smite me for damning myself for believing still I could've done something to fix it all, but I can't, I couldn't have, and its done... The hard part is moving on... 2.5 years of being single and slapped in the face with the strong and sturdy relationships of others, my father's perverted and inhuman views of me and women, and my good friend rubbing in my face he has the perfect GF and then having this amazing woman for 3 weeks (I've known her for longer mind you) despite the fact she was uncomfortable with a lot that I was doing (holding her hand, hugging, cuddling, etc.) I was happy. I had someone who could deal with how bad of a person I am, and not judge me or abuse me for it. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to be with anyone for a long while; she was the only woman who can put up with me as I said before...