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[Hanslanda]

This Nelson Mandela person died, and everyone keeps talking about how terrible it is, and I feel a bit left out because the name doesn't even sound familiar to me. I feel like I've missed another one of those things that everybody seems to know but me. >_<

He was majorly important to ending the apartheid in Africa.

[Reudh]

This Nelson Mandela person died, and everyone keeps talking about how terrible it is, and I feel a bit left out because the name doesn't even sound familiar to me. I feel like I've missed another one of those things that everybody seems to know but me. >_<

He was majorly important to ending the apartheid in Africa.

I... what...? How can you not know? He's one of the 20th century's most cherished people, along with Martin Luther King Jr, the Dalai Lama, Pope John Paul II. Like Hans said, he was majorly important in ending Apartheid in South Africa. He came out of jail after 27 years doing hard labour still with the drive to make things better for his and all other people in South Africa.
By breaking Apartheid, he made life many, many times better for the Xhosa, the Zulu, and the numerous other tribes in the area, not to mention the Indian settlers/workers/former slaves who are South African too. He did so much in the name of liberty and equality, and suffered greatly for it.

[Darvi]

To be fair, it took me also a couple minutes to remember who he was. (But then again, that I remembered at all means something)

[Remalle]

I... what...? How can you not know?

Relevant.

[Skyrunner]

I think everyone gave up on my Shadowrun game. Either that or they're waiting for me to railroad them into something >_>

Sometimes you just gotta drop the rails.

[Foamybeard]

I just finished watching Last Exile... Now sure what I should be watching now. I'm... Picky, when it comes to anime, much like I am when I comes to books, so now I'm going to have to spend the next 3 months finding a half-decent violent fantasy anime. (And please don't say Berserk, I intend to read the Manga of that first.)

So uh... I'm sad that I gotta find another anime to watch.

[Gentlefish]

Puella Magi Madoka Magica. It's violent. Plus Gundere!

[Foamybeard]

Puella Magi Madoka Magica. It's violent. Plus Gundere!

Eh... I meant more like Record of Lodoss War. Less magical.

[HissinhWalnuts]

My favorite god game is dying. 

[Remalle]

Watch it anyway.  It's honestly one of the best stories I've ever experienced in any medium.

[Foamybeard]

Hm. Alright, then. I'll give it a try.

[JoshuaFH]

I just feel so sick with myself, so disgusting, so angry and frustrated with myself..

What I did tonight was breakdown and go to a strip club, just cause I wanted any female contact. I regret it now, so much. I couldn't relax at all, I feel so guilty when I waste money frivolously. There weren't any girls I found genuinely attractive, I kept being distracted by how lifeless and mechanical their nude dancing was. And when there was one girl that I found attractive, she wouldn't pay any attention to me.

It really does feel like I drag around an aura that says 'Don't Talk to Me', and even when I'm willing to let go a lot of money just to feel like I'm dispelled of it, it's so evident that the aura's clutched onto me and won't let go.

And so I broke down even further, and did something I internally swore to never do: I started flipping through old texts on my phone that I'd been saving for months, written by the last girl I dated so long ago. I wanted to read them again cause she was so sincerely calling me cute and handsome, she was so playful and nice and smart, I just wanted to feel that kind of good attention again.

I had to walk out of the club when I started welling up right there, before anyone noticed. I cried a little driving back home. Pulling into my driveway and turning the ignition off, I was just so upset I sat in the pitch blackness of my car for twenty minutes or so trying to put my head together.

I'm losing all hope in my life. What the fuck is wrong with me.

[scrdest]

I just feel so sick with myself, so disgusting, so angry and frustrated with myself..

What I did tonight was breakdown and go to a strip club, just cause I wanted any female contact. I regret it now, so much. I couldn't relax at all, I feel so guilty when I waste money frivolously. There weren't any girls I found genuinely attractive, I kept being distracted by how lifeless and mechanical their nude dancing was. And when there was one girl that I found attractive, she wouldn't pay any attention to me.

It really does feel like I drag around an aura that says 'Don't Talk to Me', and even when I'm willing to let go a lot of money just to feel like I'm dispelled of it, it's so evident that the aura's clutched onto me and won't let go.

And so I broke down even further, and did something I internally swore to never do: I started flipping through old texts on my phone that I'd been saving for months, written by the last girl I dated so long ago. I wanted to read them again cause she was so sincerely calling me cute and handsome, she was so playful and nice and smart, I just wanted to feel that kind of good attention again.

I had to walk out of the club when I started welling up right there, before anyone noticed. I cried a little driving back home. Pulling into my driveway and turning the ignition off, I was just so upset I sat in the pitch blackness of my car for twenty minutes or so trying to put my head together.

I'm losing all hope in my life. What the fuck is wrong with me.

Vicious cycle.

You have low self-esteem and are desperate for contact, and people can see this at a subconscious level - probably without even realizing that. And most people, even if their consciously followed ethics would tell them otherwise, are supremely self-interested, and as such they gravitate to people who make them feel better. That's the 'aura' - it's very very subtle things that can be read at a glance and turn people away from you.

It's a feedback loop, but it can be broken.

[Foamybeard]

I just feel so sick with myself, so disgusting, so angry and frustrated with myself..

What I did tonight was breakdown and go to a strip club, just cause I wanted any female contact. I regret it now, so much. I couldn't relax at all, I feel so guilty when I waste money frivolously. There weren't any girls I found genuinely attractive, I kept being distracted by how lifeless and mechanical their nude dancing was. And when there was one girl that I found attractive, she wouldn't pay any attention to me.

It really does feel like I drag around an aura that says 'Don't Talk to Me', and even when I'm willing to let go a lot of money just to feel like I'm dispelled of it, it's so evident that the aura's clutched onto me and won't let go.

And so I broke down even further, and did something I internally swore to never do: I started flipping through old texts on my phone that I'd been saving for months, written by the last girl I dated so long ago. I wanted to read them again cause she was so sincerely calling me cute and handsome, she was so playful and nice and smart, I just wanted to feel that kind of good attention again.

I had to walk out of the club when I started welling up right there, before anyone noticed. I cried a little driving back home. Pulling into my driveway and turning the ignition off, I was just so upset I sat in the pitch blackness of my car for twenty minutes or so trying to put my head together.

I'm losing all hope in my life. What the fuck is wrong with me.

Vicious cycle.

You have low self-esteem and are desperate for contact, and people can see this at a subconscious level - probably without even realizing that. And most people, even if their consciously followed ethics would tell them otherwise, are supremely self-interested, and as such they gravitate to people who make them feel better. That's the 'aura' - it's very very subtle things that can be read at a glance and turn people away from you.

It's a feedback loop, but it can be broken.

This one is interested in how one could break a cycle like that. Due to my Clinical depression, i'm constantly teetering on the edge of falling into a cycle such as that. I'd like to learn how to break it before it starts.

[scrdest]

Ouch, clinical depression? That's gotta suck. But the problem is in clinical depression it's your neurochemistry being fucked up, and well, if I knew how to fix it reliably I would be a very happy and a very rich man now.

But, one thing I got figured out is that people aren't psychic - they're reading your body language, and you can work on that, at a cost of potentially feeling like you're cheating other people. Although in this case, my answer is that people do it all the time without realizing it.