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[Mr Space Cat]

Wached Saltybets for--I dunno--an hour or two? It's Friday night, I have free time, it was funny to watch at the time.

Nope, brain has to go and make me feel guilty for it, pretty much like everything else I do. Can I not have fun, brain? Can I not waste spend time however I want and have no regrets about it? If I have such stupid problems with losing time then my brain should stop needing sleep, that's valuable time lost staring at the back of my eyelids. Hypocrite brain.

Gah. Emotions can be so stupid.

[Xantalos]

Hnnnng
My body's food sac is aching.
It hurts.

[MadMalkavian]

I kind of wish I had somewhere to be this Friday night. Not a party or anything but someone to hang out with or talk to or have fun with besides myself. It would be nice to have a social life outside of the internet.

Hnnnng
My body's food sac is aching.
It hurts.

I'm sorry to hear about that. I can kind of sympathize because I've been having stomach problems and diarrhea every day for the past two weeks. I think I have a mild flu or something.

[Solifuge]

Why is it that my brain decides, just as I'm starting to get all these work prospects and things are starting to fall into place that it kicks in the Depression Switch, and bombs me with self-doubt, fear of failure, and desire to just collapse and give up? How does that even Effective? That's a terrible survival strategy, brain!

I really despise feeling listless, and being sapped of the will to overcome said listlessness. It's weak. I can't afford weakness right now. But I feel too weak to even overcome my weakness.

[Putnam]

Just caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror. Maybe its just because I've had a long day with barely 100 miles to show for it, but with my glasses, stress lines, messy fading hair and thin beard, I look like someone's grandpa. I often feel like someone's grandpa.

I'm not even 25 yet. Damn.

My grandpa was a trucker and you look the part and act the part. You are now the surrogate for my late biological grandpa who I never knew. Good luck.


shit putnam's late night posting again what should he do WHAT SHOULD HE DO

[SalmonGod]

Why is it that my brain decides, just as I'm starting to get all these work prospects and things are starting to fall into place that it kicks in the Depression Switch, and bombs me with self-doubt, fear of failure, and desire to just collapse and give up? How does that even Effective? That's a terrible survival strategy, brain!

I really despise feeling listless, and being sapped of the will to overcome said listlessness. It's weak. I can't afford weakness right now. But I feel too weak to even overcome my weakness.

Because why wouldn't you worry about failure when faced with the prospect of success?  Your brain is trying to emphasize importance and caution, and just taking it too far.

[Solifuge]

Just caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror. Maybe its just because I've had a long day with barely 100 miles to show for it, but with my glasses, stress lines, messy fading hair and thin beard, I look like someone's grandpa. I often feel like someone's grandpa.

I'm not even 25 yet. Damn.

If it's any consolation, I've felt like someone's grandpa since I was about 10. Probably because I was pretty much raised by my grandparents, and picked up a lot of traits from them. Considering the rate at which my hair is thinning in my 20s, it won't be long until I look like one too. ._.

Why is it that my brain decides, just as I'm starting to get all these work prospects and things are starting to fall into place that it kicks in the Depression Switch, and bombs me with self-doubt, fear of failure, and desire to just collapse and give up? How does that even Effective? That's a terrible survival strategy, brain!

I really despise feeling listless, and being sapped of the will to overcome said listlessness. It's weak. I can't afford weakness right now. But I feel too weak to even overcome my weakness.

Because why wouldn't you worry about failure when faced with the prospect of success?  Your brain is trying to emphasize importance and caution, and just taking it too far.

Could be. Just got to drum up the will to keep moving. Unless I really want to screw myself over, it makes no sense to stop now. It's just hard. I miss the pseudo-mania I experience when not depressed. Shit gets done, and I feel good about it. Right now, shit seems insurmountable, and I'd feel bad for sitting and waiting, and feel crappy when I spend my energy just to chip away at it.

Does make me frustrated/angry though. Maybe it's time I learned to channel that into Productivity... instead of trying to "solve" the things that are making me angry (which I may not be able to solve at all). Might be interesting to see what kind of work I do on Angry Fuel.

[ggamer]

The ;ast time I felt depression was.... A year ago? maybe earlier this year.

A girl I knew started dating a guy that was basically a better me. He was skinny, way smarter, way better with computers, was older, etc. I felt like shit because I could be that if I were motivated enough to get there. This girl that I had attempted to date for a year had fallen for a guy that was basically a better version of me.

I got over it by realizing that just because someone does something better doesn't mean they're a better person. It just means that they're a bit more skilled than you. Everybody has their own qualifications, and everybody is cool in their own way. I also got over the wierd crush I had on that girl, so now we're close friends again.

It helps that he's since gotten way far into the atlanta rave scene, what with the drugs and drinking and molly and such.

[Graknorke]

The ;ast time I felt depression was.... A year ago? maybe earlier this year.

A girl I knew started dating a guy that was basically a better me. He was skinny, way smarter, way better with computers, was older, etc. I felt like shit because I could be that if I were motivated enough to get there. This girl that I had attempted to date for a year had fallen for a guy that was basically a better version of me.

I got over it by realizing that just because someone does something better doesn't mean they're a better person. It just means that they're a bit more skilled than you. Everybody has their own qualifications, and everybody is cool in their own way. I also got over the wierd crush I had on that girl, so now we're close friends again.

It helps that he's since gotten way far into the atlanta rave scene, what with the drugs and drinking and molly and such.

So I take it you've never met a person who is you+ as well as being a better person?
It sucks.

[Fniff]

In my RP group I got accused of being a psychopath because I don't really care about my characters dying, and that the reason for this is because I play them like unimportant NPCs rather then put any actual attachment to them. And now I seem to suck at any game I play.

I am not having a good day.

[Nightscar982]

Have to prepare a RPG session for a group in two hours, and I don't know what I'm doing..

[Solifuge]

Have to prepare a RPG session for a group in two hours, and I don't know what I'm doing..

A) Steal some hooks from one of the thousands of D&D Adventure Pamphlets out there, adjusting the characters/setting as necessary.

B) Some minor villain or antagonist from way back when comes back mysteriously, and is causing a ruckus to get back at the party. They can uncover how he/she came back next session or something.

Just a few ideas. If you don't know what you're doing as in you don't know the rules.... well, you might want to hold off on running things for a bit.

[Xantalos]

In my RP group I got accused of being a psychopath because I don't really care about my characters dying, and that the reason for this is because I play them like unimportant NPCs rather then put any actual attachment to them. And now I seem to suck at any game I play.

I am not having a good day.

...
Solution, play a psychopath character?

[Max White]

In my RP group I got accused of being a psychopath because I don't really care about my characters dying, and that the reason for this is because I play them like unimportant NPCs rather then put any actual attachment to them. And now I seem to suck at any game I play.

I am not having a good day.

On that basis George R. R. Martin needs serious help.
If you aren't emotionally attached to an imaginary character I don't see the problem. I mean if you are going out of your way to get them killed it can be frustrating for other players, but indifference to a game mechanic isn't really a problem.

Heck I think we are all past the stage of caring when a Dwarf dies, these things happen.

[Kansa]

In my RP group I got accused of being a psychopath because I don't really care about my characters dying, and that the reason for this is because I play them like unimportant NPCs rather then put any actual attachment to them. And now I seem to suck at any game I play.

I am not having a good day.

There is nothing wrong with not becoming attached to your characters and it certainly doesn't make you a psychopath. At the end of the day they are just imaginary what happens to them doesn't matter, it's not like this is your attitude towards actual people dying.