I don't know what to do! No matter how talented I am it never feels like it's enough and I feel like I'm a joke in the mathematical community, not really skilled enough for anyone to call me skilled or hope for anything, and I think that a lot of it is that I'm a girl so they don't bother to nurture me and I think part of it is that I'm just not good enough.
And the book got one review, but it hasn't been getting any more, and apparently if I want to translate in French I should get certified and I don't know if I can actually pass the exam, and it's just one more thing I have to do, plus there's this translation conference I'm desperate to go to so I'm going to start doing some single-poem translations for magazine submissions but auuuuuugh
And all the stitches in the hem of my skirt are uneven, can't even do that well
And I think I'm going to be doing a frickin' data entry job after this one, which sucks, OR I'll be working full-time as a tutor in Oakland, which also sort of sucks because it's a bit mind-killing to be honest and motivating people who don't want to be motivated blows
I'm 23 and I can't drive and I'm terrified of it and everyone thinks worse of me when they learn about it
All of these LITTLE FUCKING THINGS keep coming up and I just don't want to deal with them anymore. Can't find the other skirt I need to hem, or some account somewhere getting hacked, or my bicycle having rotten handlebar covers and a slipped pin in the chain, or having my school email expire, or having the heel fall off my shoe and having to walk around lopsided for a week, and the local train strike meaning I had to ask my mom to drive me all last week and just thing after thing after thing I have to take care of. Getting ones and dimes for bus fare (automatic card took quite a while to refill!), changing the mailing address for a credit card, having both my school email and phone number changed on me without my control... it doesn't seem to end, and all of this has been in the last two weeks.
I'm so frustrated ;_;