I've been restless for a bit, but I really just need to write it down so I can finally just lay down and get some normal sleep.
I'm really confused, Hipster Girl that I was dating, I can't get over how intensely attracted to me she always seemed, and she flat out says that she wants to see me again, but then she doesn't return my texts at all. It's been a long time since our second date, but I'm just in the dark here, and I'm not sure how to approach this situation.
For some reason I just have this foreboding premonition, like this shit is just doomed to die. Like I'm being karmically punished for something I did a long time ago, and fate just feels I haven't gotten enough hurtin' my way yet. It's cause of this feeling that I've been so restless and upset for the last couple days, I'm just glad I haven't done anything stupid.
My brain is trying to counsel me this. Maybe I should just forget about her for now and just focus on trying to meet other girls? I'm not sure...
EDIT:
I'm a 23-year-old published author with a perfect GRE score, math degree, competence in five languages and a shitty job--but a job. I'm a virgin, I've never drunk, I've never done any drugs, I don't listen to rap or hiphop, I haven't been on a date in almost a year now, and I put in 12-hour days pretty consistently when my compatriots graduate and just ~take a year off~. I don't know what else they fucking want.
But yeah Vector, you can have a sense of self-accomplishment in life, cause you've accomplished things. Don't doubt the awesome things you've achieved.