I wish someone I know IRL would bother to compliment my looks at some point. I don't know. I was baby-sitting a drunk friend for the past three hours (suddenly dropped everything to do it, blah blah blah) and his version of being less inhibited involved a lot of ~talking up his girlfriend's looks~ and I just don't even know anymore.
Like, is it a thing to keep your hair short because you don't look like yourself when your hair is long? I want to be something folks will call something other than "attractive." That's very cold and scientific. But I'm not all that attractive, just more comfortable with myself. When I had longer hair, more men were interested. Now that I have shorter hair, people are being much, much nicer.
An ex told me once: "This is the first time you've worn something even approaching cute." We'd been dating for a few months, I guess. I don't know. That was the first and only time he said I was cute or anything of the like in the two-year relationship. You know, anyway. He did tell me I was handsome later, once.
The other fellow said I was beautiful exactly three times. I persistently addressed him as "handsome fellow." I don't know. I don't think I'm someone you could even call pretty anymore.
I realize I'm just kind of here whining but I'm tired of working and I want to go home. I only have one friend left back home, but I'd like to be there all the same.