Against every other trial and trauma that you folks post in here, and what happens around, it makes me feel petty when I try to bring up my menial troubles. I'm sick of the stoicism I put myself through, though.
In any case, people have been generally frosty or apathetic towards me since a little after five today, not so much as a how-do-you-do, or a smile or words after going through three people to buy dinner. Nobody I've talked to this evening has bothered asking me how I'm doing after I ask them, my brother and best friend/ex girlfriend included, she's probably going to rebound into a relationship with a guy seven years older than her because she needs someone to give her affection, I don't even know why I care, and here I am, "stoic," sad, out of people to talk to and out of ways to escape from my loneliness.
Happy Monday, everyone.
I'm in about the same way as you. I woke up today at 530 (I went to bed at 130 and usually wake up around 10-noon), worked until noon, like I was schedualed. Then a girl called in and I worked until 2 for her. At noon, I was DOG FUCKING TIRED. But I stayed. Then, I get home, and have to do laundry, go mail a package, buy socks and underwear, feed my dogs, and get my laundry off the line. Kinda sucks, but that isn't the part that bothers me. I can handle exhaustion.
No, recently, all my friends and everyone I know has been... Not talking to me. I don't know why, and it drives me fucking insane. I don't want to text/talk to them every day and annoy them, but if I don't initiate contact, I won't get to talk to them at all. Then there's the whole woman situation. Nothing I do is right, as far as women are concerned. If I distance myself so they want to chase me, they think I'm not interested and just walk away. If I show interest, they just want to be friends. I think I finally have a chance, and it turns out they've had a boyfriend this whole time.
The good news is my antidepressants work. When I remember to take them. Guess what I forgot to take this morning! I'm tired and I just want to talk to someone I can cuddle with. Then, if I try to play video games to distract myself, I can't find anything fun to play. I just don't have any motivation to play. Blarg.
Naxza, I sympathize.