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[Reudh]

So I met up with a good friend of mine today. She's just decided to take the hijab off after being heckled for being a western Muslim. Additionally, she was told by a certain group of guys that she should 'stop being progressive and be a good wife, settle down and start having kids.'
Finally, she had been disowned by her family for becoming muslim in the first place... which prompted her to tell me and my other good friend about how her life had gone; that is:
Grew up in the outback, had major issues growing up, was sexually abused by friend of family, became depressed and anorexic and suicidal, attempted it, found religion.
Prompted other friend to say that:
Grew up in the city, major issues growing up, was sexually abused by a neighbour (oddly enough, a 16 year old girl was the perpetrator), became depressed and anorexic and suicidal, attempted it, found religion.

Which made me remember a memory I had repressed, and prompted me to tell them my life too.
Grew up in the city, major issues growing up, was sexually abused by students at high school (in year eight, I was frequently forced to grope the various thug's crotches for a laugh, if I refused, I was beaten and thrown against the lockers), became depressed and suicidal, attempted it, found religion and lost it shortly afterwards.

What the fuck is wrong with the world where three people have to go through practically the exact same traumatic things in life?
So fucking angry, but it makes me feel for my friends all the more. I would be happy to live with these two for the rest of my life if only to support each other.

[DrPoo]

Theese scars.. i hate them.
I cant feel my smooth arms anymore, just scars.

But when i do it.. i disappear after doing it, after drinking my blood. I disappear.. float away.. to a land of carelessness, comfortable numbness, and death.

I wrote a poem about it.

Spoiler: Shit ass poem (click to show/hide)

I wither in pain and relief as my mind turns inside out and whats internal becoems external.
As the shards, the fingers of the godess of melancholy caress my ever fragile skin.
Tears emanate from my empty eyes as i weaken this carnal cage and drink from my own crimson liquids.
The silent organs of selfdestruction penetrate my inner ears with a pitching drone as i lay,
silent, away, into death.

[Euld]

:[  I think Bay12 needs some sort of international foster care home to take our young folks away from their dangerous surroundings then give them a safe place to live.

[Reudh]

:[  I think Bay12 needs some sort of international foster care home to take our young folks away from their dangerous surroundings then give them a safe place to live.

Oh, I'm hardly young now, I'm 21; it was eight years ago. Plus, I have consolation because I am doing an undergrad medicine related degree (the other two mentioned in that post are doing similar) and those thugs are either junkies or unemployed, unstudying fuckheads.

[Yoink]

-snip-

Hey, DrPoo. Please don't cut yourself.
I may not know you, nor what terrible situation drives you to do such things, but whatever you feel is wrong, cutting yourself is not the answer. Writing sad poetry about it is one thing, poetry is a good outlet for emotion, I just hope you wouldn't actually do it.

[misko27]

Cutting yourself is not a good idea in general. It hurts for one. It wastes precious blood is another.

[Tiruin]

Cutting yourself is not a good idea in general. It hurts for one. It wastes precious blood is another.

This.

While you may feel good from it (this is not masochism, its due to a chemical: Endorphins!), its a bad thing long term.

Best thing to do at the moment is just to rest, sleep. Don't focus on what's causing the pain, or _{if its ok....}to think about what benefited you today

[GlyphGryph]

Most people cut for the sense of control and release. That it's a bad idea is part and parcel of the desire and expression. So that's probably a wasted argument.

What you want to do is provide a superior incompatible alternative. It's the only truly effective way to stop something like cutting in my experience. It's also incredibly difficult, and probably impossible over the internet.

Dr.Poo, as an alternative, consider trying ice-dipping or the rubber band method. It sound like you're getting to the point where hiding the habit is already likely failing, so these won't be much worse. For the ice method, get a bowl of ice, fill it with cold water, let it sit for a bit. Submerge your arm, and hold it in there for as long as you can. No permanent scarring, which is probably an improvement. Hurts like fuck, of course, but that's part of the point. I've also heard people say it's more effective, mentally, than cutting is as well, but that's down to the person.

The rubber band thing is more for those who are actively trying to stop and having trouble. Basically, where rubber bands around your wrists, and pull and snap when you start getting the urge. Try to combine this with scribbling/non-goal-oriented drawing and journal keeping, build up your own little pocket of control.

Note that you'll also probably have to figure out your mental hooks: If it's the sign of blood, then you might get best results from using a red sharpie in addition to the ice method.

[Dutchling]

My bread keeps attracting all kinds of microbial motherfuckers. This time I didn't even got it out of the plastic...

I should eat more :c

[Truean]

Club owner has problem with one of my bands.
Something about a girl. Don't care.
Badmouthing to other venues and about my other (not involved) bands....
Cutting into my wallet. Care.

God damn him and his damn drama. Do not have time or patience for this.

....

Well, now to go see if he'd prefer talking this out rationally or being reciprocally ruined. Damn you, I helped put you on the map you sorry little ingrate.... How did you think you got people flocking there, especially from all the groups I'm in?

How does the hand that feeds you taste? Also quit biting my hand.

[MonkeyHead]

My bread keeps attracting all kinds of microbial motherfuckers. This time I didn't even got it out of the plastic...

I should eat more :c

For some reason I read that as "beard"...

[Max White]

There is a tune going through my head. It is sad and beautiful and I know I have heard it before, years ago. I'm talking 90's years ago. Can't remember where from and I know I never knew the name, and it has no lyrics, but it is such a great song...
And I will never hear it aloud again...

Edit: Oh my god, could it be...

[MaximumZero]

Thanks to an uncooperative daughter, having to drive across town to pick my brother up, and in general taking too damn long to do morning stuff, I was so late for my first class that it was best that I just didn't show up, to avoid interrupting everyone. ;_;

[LordSlowpoke]

A "developer advocate", whatever that means, cost a father of three his job due to him making one of the oldest jokes in the industry.

Why, why did people have to ruin the term feminism. But then, with my gender remaining undisclosed, I'll shut up and click post.

[Tiruin]

History and assuming :/

That wasn't a smart thing to blog about...given how a simple mistake can get blown up - which can easily be fixed by a simple word.