Why are nobody ever romantically interested(or sexually attracted) in me? :/
Im not fat, im almost skeletally slender due to my gone-awry metabolism. Im blonde, almost two meters. Im mannered, friendly and talkative. Yet even the saddest asshole around me finds someone. I meet all the criteria presented statistics.
I would have made Hitler proud(thanks god those assholes never won)
I have no congenital ailments or genetic diseases. Physically, im completely perfect.
Can they really see what a twisted tangled mess that my mind is? I hide it behind a franctic smile.
Many of my female aqquaintances claim that i would make a good partner.
Yet i remain lonely.
For fucks sake, i want to die without the notion that the last lips i kissed were those of a psychotic murderer.
Im seen as a tool for people to use,
Seen as a tame companion or docile servant.
Im seen as some strange.being.
Ignored.
But i dont want to be ignored, i dont want to be seen as alien, or some useful idiot, or someones servant, nor a replacement to half-heartedly plug the hole of some fellows otherwise intact heart.
I want people to see how beutiful, caring and feeling i am, what a lover i am, how bright a sun i am, what a.. Person i am. I want to be considered a human being.
I want to feel love. Life. So i can have a meaning with all this.