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[JoshuaFH]

I feel I keep having dreams stemming from my chronic loneliness. I'd call the most recent one extremely convincing, but you can convince anyone of anything if they want it badly enough: In the dream, there was an extremely old crush I had in Highschool who was aged a bit, and now my girlfriend. I wasn't the awkward shit I'm always picturing myself to be, and was just having fun with her and all my other friends. Perhaps it was real easy to tell it was a dream, even while dreaming, cause I was openly wondering to myself how I couldn't remember any time we ever spent together, and how I couldn't remember her face until I saw her in my dream, and how people in stores were just giving me things for free cause I'm s-p-e-c-i-a-l kind of made it really really obvious. But still, it was one of those dreams where it felt like real life was the nightmare that you woke up from, and the dream was the actual life.

Waking up, as always, it's like "Why aren't you dead yet?", I'm just not sure how to start up my life. My Job Coach has just given up on me, so now I'm just on my own in that aspect. I'm always getting angry over silly things. I don't want to go to sleep, cause I don't want time to skip forward to the next day. I want time to just stop.

I wish I could just follow what ordinary people do, just so I know what it's like in the shoes of someone that's not fucked up.

[penguinofhonor]

"I never look back dahrling, it distracts from the NOW."

<3 Edna Mode from The Incredibles.

I read that as "I never look back dahling, it distracts from WoW." It still made sense.

[SalmonGod]

I wish I could just follow what ordinary people do, just so I know what it's like in the shoes of someone that's not fucked up.

I'm sure you've heard this before, but this whole idea is something that just doesn't exist.  There's no breezing through life by being "ordinary".  The closest I've ever met to this description are a few co-workers I've had who are almost completely robotic.  They have zero personality.  They work, watch some tv, sleep, and go back to work.  That's it.  Unless they've managed to dissolve their ego into some sort of zen bliss, there's no way they're happy or fulfilled, no matter how stable their lives may be.  Some people fall into this because life is completely uninspiring to them and going to work and being told what to do is the only thing they can imagine doing with themselves.  I don't think you want to be like that.

I can relate to your hatred for sleep, though.  The main reason I have so much trouble forcing myself to go to sleep when I need to is because the next thing I'll know is waking up and going back to work.

[MaximumZero]

"I never look back dahrling, it distracts from the NOW."

<3 Edna Mode from The Incredibles.

I thought for sure that she was Linda Hunt (the lady who plays Hetty on NCIS:LA). Also, the narrator and Gaia in the God of War series, apparently. Turns out, I couldn't have been farther from the truth.

[Rose]

But Hetty IS Edna Mode.

[MaximumZero]

But Hetty IS Edna Mode.

That said, Edna Mode is voiced by...Brad Bird, the guy who wrote "The Incredibles".

[Xantalos]

But Hetty IS Edna Mode.

That said, Edna Mode is voiced by...Brad Bird, the guy who wrote "The Incredibles".

And The Iron Giant.
DAMN IT MY EYES ARE SWEATING AGAIN

[Mr Space Cat]

Woke up this morning, and still feel sick with a runny ass nose and a sore throat. Dammit.

[Coalwalker]

Found out that I have no chance of passing the courses I'm in this term. I guess it's back to washing dishes 60 hours a week, $6,000 in the hole and clinging to fantasies of better lives. Some people are just incurably stupid, I guess!

[RedKing]

Incongruous smiley is incongruous. 

[Coalwalker]

Incongruous smiley is incongruous. 

Well, bitterness never got anyone anywhere but into alcoholism or worse. I wasn't entitled to anything in the first place, so sad as it is today, nothing's really getting any worse.

[Glowcat]

Found out that I have no chance of passing the courses I'm in this term. I guess it's back to washing dishes 60 hours a week, $6,000 in the hole and clinging to fantasies of better lives. Some people are just incurably stupid, I guess!

That sucks. What do you think went wrong? Sometimes just the perception that you're inferior can sink itself into your mind and make itself a self-fulfilling prophecy. I know I tend to do worse when I'm in a period of self-loathing and doubt my abilities.

[Korbac]

There's also a component of hard work - in fact, I'd say that's often much more of a factor than intellect.

[Vector]

There's also a component of hard work - in fact, I'd say that's often much more of a factor than intellect.

This has been demonstrated in scientific studies.

[fqllve]

Ah, so I'm not stupid, just lazy. I always suspected as much.

More seriously, intelligence is just a consequence of hard work anyway.