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[MaximumZero]

Hey, Hansbro, have you got an electric blanket, heating pad or something? That always helped when my hand was broken...

[Hanslanda]

Hey, Hansbro, have you got an electric blanket, heating pad or something? That always helped when my hand was broken...

My dad has a heating pad, here on the couch. I'll try that. I used to have a balm I'd use, and it would help a bit, but I don't know where it got to when I was in jail the first time.

[Kedly]

And it's real happy. I just have to get through the overlying depression before I can feel it though. I'm not sure I'm explaining it very well though...

And my hand is and has been broken for about a year and a half ish now. Or my pinky knuckle, more accurately.

Huh, when I'm depressed I usually cant make myself happy, I can distract myself enough to laugh or kind of feel happy, but as soon as I remember that Im depressed the happiness evaporates.

[Hanslanda]

It's like a battle, kind of. I'm not really depressed, I just have these depressed feelings trying to steal into my brain, you know? And they're super good at it. They're not how I actually feel, they're just lies that try to pass themselves off as truth. I can be happy, but it is only a matter of time before my guard goes down and the depressed thoughts fight their way in for awhile. It isn't always like that, either. It comes and goes pretty frequently, about every two weeks it seems.
I really have begun to think I need to see a doctor because I might be manic depressive, but I'm not an expert. :/

[Kedly]

Honestly that sounds quite a bit like what I deal with, and the specialist I saw recently thinks I might have bi-polar II, and I'm currently being medicated for it. It's really seeming to work.

Edit: I asked if I can back out of this without harming our friendship an hour ago and I still haven't got a responce...

[Itnetlolor]

Just played some classic Unreal Tournament again at my last settings I did not half bad with... Actually, I was mopping up the bots set on Godlike. I rocked at that game.

Now then... Since when did I begin to suck so bad at that game? I noticed this while playing Borderlands 2 as well. I hope I'm not losing interest in gaming. I don't wanna grow up.

Then again, I did also customize the bots, this time, to something more different than the default I usually battled against (thought the defaults on even Godlike were fun to battle). Sorta characterized them after a series of main characters I made for a story eons ago. Oh my goodness, they are hideously overpowered, and diverse in killing methods (all areas are covered, and I have an average death rate of 10 seconds of life). I bet I would still have a hard time fighting them even on an easier difficulty, even after battling them on the hardest.

As far as I know, to un-sadden a bit, I think I've been "playing it safe" far too much these days (to the point of being a bit of a personality flaw), thanks to having to be an ammo hoarder and conservative with my equipment when playing Fallout and Borderlands and most other games these days, and working towards a goal all the times besides "winning". I'll have to admit, shutting off the safety on my mindset, and just letting loose with the rockets, bio sludge, bullets, and so on... felt great being able to shoot as if I had an unlimited supply; sorta because I did, provided I knew where and when to collect them.

Now that I come and think of it; I think I've been on a poverty mindset for a considerable amount of time, on more levels than just games and real life finances, and didn't realize it until now. I need to do things where I feel like I have unlimited resources and control over things (while actually having the limits still; it just doesn't feel like it). I may need to play Doom or Roller Coaster Tycoon again, or finish my game of Starcon 2 where I already did acquire unlimited resources, and I have a battleship that can 1-shot most everything in it's sights, and make ease of Ur-Quans on it's own.

[Hanslanda]

Honestly that sounds quite a bit like what I deal with, and the specialist I saw recently thinks I might have bi-polar II, and I'm currently being medicated for it. It's really seeming to work.

Edit: I asked if I can back out of this without harming our friendship an hour ago and I still haven't got a responce...

Well, I'd rather not have a mental disorder, but if I do, I'd like to know for sure. :/ I'll have to go see a doctor when I get insurance finally.

And just be patient. Wait til you see her in person before you make assumptions.

[Kedly]

Lol yeah, I guess all I can do is wait. I really hope I didn't damge our friendship. The plus side to having a diagnosed mental disorder is that you now have resources on how to deal/treat it.

Edit: She relpied and its fine, a solid two hours of stress probably mean my mood isnt going to recover for the rest of the night however.

[Solifuge]

I've know my mother has been in mediocre health for some time. Tonight, I learned that her liver appears to be in the mid to late stages of failure... and with her outlook on life, I don't see her actively seeking treatment. It's an excuse to give up and die, and she's been looking for one of those for most of my life.

Can't sleep, and ended up trying to distract myself with the internet... and instead ended up doing a bunch of reading on the social issues our world is currently facing. Now I'm just feeling... I don't know a good single word for it, but exasperated, resentful, and outraged play into it.

Spoiler: Fuck you, Plutchik Wheel, you're no help. (click to show/hide)

[RedKing]

I've know my mother has been in mediocre health for some time. Tonight, I learned that her liver appears to be in the mid to late stages of failure... and with her outlook on life, I don't see her actively seeking treatment. It's an excuse to give up and die, and she's been looking for one of those for most of my life.

  

Wish I knew something to say. Here for ya.

[MaximumZero]

Ugh. I really, really don't want to push through another hearing in this child support deal, but I'm going to have to. I can't afford the recommended judgment. Truean, you don't get paid nearly enough to do legal research. Whatever you make, it's not enough. This shit sucks.

[Loud Whispers]

Apparently peppermint tea lowers the PH of your stomach acids by a *teency* bit. Not a problem if your stomach contents stay in your stomach, otherwise you're going to get bloody burns... Also milk is slightly alkaline. Use this knowledge to your advantage.

[MetalSlimeHunt]

I'm going to fail my math class if I don't seriously improve my ability to do math. God I hate math.

[miauw62]

Gah, i need to find an efficient way to learn and remember the two new forms that came in this year of Latin and have to be studied for the word tests. This wouldnt be a problem at the "normal" rate of learning words, 8/day. But since this is the start of the year we have to re-study loads of words from last year, causing 80/week, wich is 20/day if you count in a sunday for restudying all of them.

I got the first twenty now, but i bet i wont remember them tomorrow

[Karlito]

Also milk is slightly alkaline. Use this knowledge to your advantage.

I've heard this a lot, but most sources that I've seen actually put it at slightly acidic.