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[MaximumZero]

so it begins: http://www.newsnet5.com/dpp/news/local_news/cleveland_metro/cab-driver-shot-in-leg-by-non-paying-riders-picked-up-from-clevelands-horseshoe-casino

I take it that this is sad because you expect to have some spectacularly dumb new clients very soon.

I would just go ahead and turn that one down, unless they're willing to try to get a plea deal as soon as they walk through the door.

[Lectorog]

A bunch of minor sads can add up to a major sad.

Do you have anything to look forward to, or work toward? And is it something you actually care about? If not, find one.

I'm trying to pass this class that ends in two weeks (which, by the way, I hate). I'm slowly working on a suit of chainmail. I'm learning to program better. I'm reading through The Singularity is Near and a couple of novels. I have all but one achievement in The Binding of Isaac, after 165 hours played.
That is all I'm working toward in my life right now. I'm not doing any but the first and last, so that should tell you how much I care about them currently - even though I like them, I feel like I don't have time for them. For example, if I start to read a book, I think "I have no right to do this, I need to be reading my textbook."
I don't know how to find something I care about. I really don't. I don't know where to start looking. I don't even know what, exactly, I'm interested in.
I suppose I'm kind of looking forward to high school starting back up, so I'll be talking to people again; but that's a very double-edged matter, and usually ends up with more loss than gain on my part.

Damn, stop being me.  And I'm no psychologist, but have you gotten checked out for depression?

I'm not always like this - just the last couple of weeks. I've not talked to a psychologist, nor do I know if I should. After last summer, I'd been having monthly feelings of depression, usually lasting a few days to a week; this is different from that. I'm plenty happy sometimes, as happy as any other antisocial 16 year old. Haven't been much lately, though. I don't know what the problem is.

[Solifuge]

Pardon my presumption, but it kinda sounds like you've got a bit of mental disparity there. Reading a book you enjoy should be enough reason to consider reading it, no? On a similar note, doing things you feel you should be doing is important, but those should also be things you want to do, for your own sake.

If doing something you think (or others tell you) that you should do isn't in your best interest, then why should you do it? If it's something you should do for your well-being, either short or long-term, why should you not want to do it?

I sometimes meditate on that when I feel misguided. It helps me prioritize.

[Lectorog]

Reading a book you enjoy should be enough reason to consider reading it, no?

Yes, and that's why I have these books. I read them, but only for about 15 minutes each day (during lunch). I feel that, if I'm going to be reading, I need to read my textbook before I read something for pleasure.

On a similar note, doing things you feel you should be doing is important, but those should also be things you want to do, for your own sake.

If doing something you think (or others tell you) that you should do isn't in your best interest, then why should you do it? If it's something you should do for your well-being, either short or long-term, why should you not want to do it?

Wanting to do something and enjoying it are two different things. I do want to do my classwork, because I want the credit. However, I also don't want to because my feeling toward it is the opposite of enjoyment and it will have no benefit for me other than the credit.

I really hate doing some things (mostly going to school), but I do want to do them. I wouldn't do something that I don't want to do. I want to do something because it benefits me. Thus, even if I hate it, I may want to do it because my life will likely be better for having done it than if I don't do it. Similarly, there are things I want to do, but overall don't want to do for the same reasons. Many things have reasons for which I do and do not want to do them. Wanting to do something does not mean that I only want to do it. I want to do some things that I really don't want to do.

Sorry if that comes off as a bit rude. I tried to make it not. Thinking through all that in my mind is making me a bit angry.
And I do have a bit of mental disparity. I'm working with several contradictions right now. I can't seem to figure them out.

[Aklyon]

Sorry if its a bit blunt, but if you think you need to read your textbook, then read the dang thing. Then put it down later and read something less informative and potentially more interesting, otherwise you're going to bore yourself out from reading the same instructional book for an extended period of time without anything substantial inbetween.

[Lectorog]

I meant to mention it, but I forgot. I'm having trouble focusing on reading. I'm never much good at it, but it's worse than usual now. Usually, if people are talking I won't be able to focus. Now, my thoughts are distracting me. I have to be in the right mindset to read, and I'm having trouble achieving that. So if I sit down to read, it will end up with a lot of unpleasant time wasted.
Also, I don't have to read the textbook. I've gotten by for the last two weeks in class without reading the book. That really isn't helping motivate me to read it. :/
I'll try to do what you suggested, though. It might help. Thanks.

[Euld]

Had a beer, apparently I still don't like beer <_<

[Nega]

My headset, a G330 Logitech headset, finally stopped working after at least a year of use. The wires got broken and now I can't hear anything or use the mic. On the bright side, I found a pair of headsets for sale that look like they're worth buying.

[Nadaka]

Had a beer, apparently I still don't like beer <_<

The trick to enjoying beer... is that you already have to be drunk before you drink the beer.

It also helps if the beer is ice cold and from a tap. Tap tastes better than bottle tastes better than can.

[ChairmanPoo]

Oohhh fuck I think I'm sleeping badly because I'm relapsing into generalized anxiety.... why, damnit, why.... things were going perfect..... I had a nice slot and I'm causing a good impression,  why this shit now, it doesnt make any sense. Things are GOOD you stupid temporal lobes, and likely to REMAIN good unless you fuck it up, which you seem keen on doing

[MaximumZero]

Had a beer, apparently I still don't like beer <_<

I still need to buy more rum.

[kaijyuu]

How the fuck do I deal with an outright sociopath I have to live with?


I won't go into details, but I'm forced to live with someone due to financial reasons. This person has absolutely 0 respect for me whatsoever. I have no privacy, no opinion worth listening to, and no purpose to living other than serving her whims. A while back I realized she has not spoken 1. single. word. to me in YEARS that wasn't a demand to do something (oft thinly veiled as a request). I literally do not remember anything resembling a conversation. It's 1 sided demands every time, every day. And the moment I speak up, I'm the bad guy. So I'm silent. I do not respond. I'm distant and feigning that I don't care. And it's killing me.

[penguinofhonor]

You get a new roommate.

[Lagslayer]

You get a new roommate.

I agree. What a bitch.

[Urist Imiknorris]

You rebel against the wannabe tyrannical overlord.