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[kaijyuu]

My ADHD has been killing me these past few months.

Very close to 0 productivity. Just stagnating. My income is higher than my expenses at least, but the tiny trickle of money I'm building up is little consolation for not improving myself, making progress on anything, or creating anything new. I've made a little bit of progress on my fangame and started a fanfiction; It's roughly equal to the amount of accomplishment I had in, say, November. In 3 months. This time without school to worry about, during which time I was doing finals and getting ready to graduate from the damn place.

I hate my medication, too. It's literally no different than a caffeine high. Burst of energy is all it does; still have to beat down my inhibitions for working on anything that my brain doesn't register as the number 1 most interesting thing to focus on.


I've been sitting around, reading forums. Indulging in wiki walks. Watching cartoons that only interest me due to tangential relation to ones I actually do like, and aren't as good.


Ugh. If I could direct my apathy and obsession, I'd be the most productive person in the world. But nope, I have to focus on consuming, not creating. Damn it.

Dwarf Fortress has been an enabler for me, too, crazily enough. It pushes the buttons in my brain for rewarding work; I think up a wacky system to solve a problem, implement it, and get those nice brain chemicals I would've gotten had I produced something real. World of Warcraft did the same thing, which is partially why I quit. Guess I need to lay off DF too.


Tad bit worried about my health, too. Out of shape, not eating right, not taking care of my teeth like I should, and of course I'm plain getting older too. I sometimes wonder if I subconsciously think I'll live forever, without things potentially preventing me from accomplishment, which is why I procrastinate. Justify it to myself that I'll do things later, and I need a break from stress, even though my lack of doing things is the cause of my stress.


Self conscious about body image. Don't care about fashion or anything, so this doesn't really make sense to me, but I catch myself wondering all the time if I'm one of those people they put a funny caption under and post on the internet. Just 5 minutes ago I was afraid I might have some BO going on, despite taking a shower not more than 4 hours ago.


Maybe I need a therapist so I have an appropriate place to rant instead of an internet forum, too.

[Yoink]

Man... It always makes me feel sad waking up from an interesting dream, always so much more exciting than my boring little life. Add to that how I still have the movie I watched the other day stuck in my head so that I'm always thinking about it, and I've been feeling pretty down today. Even out wandering around the big nearby shopping centre/mall I feel kinda sad. (Although now you mention it, being in crowded public places isn't exactly something that usually cheers me up... Especially when they're all happy.)
At least I have my new phone, which has pretty much replaced my broken Ipod just before I would have gone insane from lack of music.
Bought a rather bittersweet CD the other day, too... While I love the music(The Shins), it and other sad music probably isn't the best thing to listen to in my current mood. Even videogames don't seem fun right now. Dunno what to do with myself... Maybe I need to get out more.

[DrPoo]

I fucked up my RG2228 today, i was trying to adjust the string height on the 7th string, i think i was screwing the wrong screw because suddenly "CLACK" and then the thing was completely loose, untuneable. Fuck my life..

EDIT: Fixd it again, ME WIZARDSTA

[Delta Foxtrot]

First world sadness. New xkcd came out and I have only three web browsers to check it out. Not going to bother downloading more browsers for just this one time though. Still would kind of like to see them. I wonder what the strip looks like with Lynx.

[fqllve]

I think it also changes depending on your location. On Chrome I get one about the earthquake in NC a few months back, and considering how late it is and that Randall doesn't live in NC I'm guessing other places get location specific comics. Opera, Firefox, and IE all get the same 2Quiet 2Furious joke, which sucks, and I bet Midori and Chromium will get the same. I wonder if OS has anything to do with it. Probably switch over later to see.

[ToonyMan]

I get Umwelt which changes depending on your horizontal browser size.

[Leafsnail]

No matter how big or small I make my browser I still don't get it.

[The Merchant Of Menace]

I got http://tnypic.net/c1283.png

[Greiger]

Here in florida firefox gave me a joke about earthquakes and hurricanes.



Absolutely hilarious.  IE just has some little light tunnel thing, chrome has some police searching the bay thing I don't get.   If I could locate my phone I'd check it out in safari too.

[JoshuaFH]

I bet there'll eventually be a collection of them stored somewhere for the curious.

[Darvi]

I should probably feel special that it recycles the previous strip for me.

[Delta Foxtrot]

I should probably feel special that it recycles the previous strip for me.

NoScript much?

[Furtuka]

Here in florida firefox gave me a joke about earthquakes and hurricanes.

Oh hey, here in Illinois I got the same thing but the last panel had them stuck in a snowstorm instead

[Darvi]

Oh.

In that case I get hat guy hooked to a lie detector.

[Pnx]

Oh.

In that case I get hat guy hooked to a lie detector.

It's not a lie detector, it reads someone's emotional reactions to tell if they're human. It's a blade runner reference.