@Toony
Dudebro, there's nothing you need to feel is wrong with yourself. Life's a big sandbox RPG with arbitrary rules nobody ever tells you, but don't worry bout it. You don't even have to find meaning in it. Some people do, some people don't, there's nothing really better one way or the other. I've had to invent purposes to chase after, which is a different thing from finding one, and everyone has different ways of dealing with the mess. Just don't fall into the trap of trying to tell yourself you've found a meaning you haven't - doesn't sound like it's a place you've wound up in, but just so you know. You don't have to feel like less of a person for not having a destination, so you don't have to make yourself think you have one. You can be an awesome dude, and do awesome things, either way.
I bet I've completely missed the point, but I'll just finish by saying you're pretty spiffy so I wouldn't be so hard on yourself as you seemed to be at the beginning of that post.
@SalmonGod
Hey, how much do you need to make, and how feasible would a relocation to eastern Iowa be for you? Next time the hospital's doing a hiring wave I could let you know, you'd easily meet the requirements for pharmacy technician, and the pay's about 28,000 a year and some spiffy benefits (family plan for insurance is something like $200 a month out of your paycheck, though, plus with taxes and all that I dunno). Just a random thought I had >_______>
@Truean
You're basically pretty awesome as a person as far as I can tell. That's about all there is to say on the matter.