Being horny actually does that to you? Well, now I'm scared getting a sexuality.
...what? Why?
That just sounds fucking terrifying to me.
It's alright Realmfighter, that line of thinking will be patronized by society until the end of time. It's just a factual thing.
It's really hard for me to discuss, and also I have a hard time articulating it, but I'm just incredibly alienated by the social norm that is a person always trying to fulfill some sexual need imbued into them by millions of years of evolution. I'm alienated even more so that everyone just accepts it as part of their own personal nature, rather than nature itself conspiring against you, subtly forcing you to carve your own inner self to match it.
I'm a person that's always been lonely, and I'm pretty sure I'll die lonely. I'm not complaining though; A friend once complained about his loneliness to me, and I told him that loneliness is a skill, you get better at it with practice. He didn't get it, so I just backpedaled it into a weird joke, but I was dead serious.
Even so, I hate myself. I hate that my body yearns to attain a heterosexual ideal. I hate how society expects that I have this mindset. I hate viewing myself as a freak that has noone to speak with, and can barely articulate these ideas, and so I still view myself as the neglected brat that I fear that I never grew out of. And I hate myself that literally noone, not a single person gives a shit about such petty problems, and so I can't even find friends in theoretical people that have those things in common.
I have alot of problems Realm, thanks for speaking up today so that I could find the courage in myself to atleast mention them. I'm not naive enough to actually expect people to relate though.