I'm going to get very, very drunk.
No public defender/appointment only. Judge forcibly appoints incredibly heinous criminal defendant--who doesn't even want counsel now--knowing firm has no experience in this area, at all. She could've easily picked another firm that does this sort of thing. She won't let anyone out of it, because no one wants this case but he must have representation. He attacked and injured his last lawyer just for suggesting a plea deal. He scares the shit out of me everyone. Mountain of terribly convincing evidence, no alibi or defense beyond, "wasn't me." (Original). Guess who firm puts on this.... I bet the last guy's hospital bill was more than this pays too, not that I'd willingly take it for any amount of money.... This is not a typical case and should be handled by a larger, more specialized firm and the judge knows this, is able to fix it, but doesn't care.
Naturally, the "defense side is scum" attitude is pervasive, even though I don't do this kind of work, didn't ask for it, specifically tried to get out of doing it, and wasn't allowed to leave. O, and if you do refuse this kind of thing against the court's orders that's contempt of court, which actually might mean jail. Go right ahead and force this job on someone and then look down at them....
Yeah, I think I'm preparing my resume'.... I never wanted to do this particular sort of thing, and no, it really isn't par for the course. This jig and its effects on my life, aren't getting better. Ah back breaking straw, this camel has been expecting you....