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[Grimshot]

Don't worry about it, then =)

 I can't do that until I've talked with my brother again. Even if I didn't carry it out it still corrupted my brother to an extent. After that I'll take your advice. Thanks for telling not to worry about it, I needed that actually.

[Burnt Pies]

Found a Necromunda campaign going on near where I live, contacted the guys organising it and spoke about the gang I'd be using. Looks like they're going to force me to use the old, underpowered and crappy rules which in every review I've heard have resulted in small, underequipped gangs dying to any sort of long range firepower. They also don't want me to use any gangs from outside this one website, meaning some of my all time favourites are out as well, and the vast majority of the rules on this website are absolutely ancient and don't mesh well with the current rules.

Might just roll the old Van Saar plasma horde and annoy everyone.

[KaelGotDwarves]

Clarification - wiki DXM... that's what I get for talking and trying to type at the same time.

[Vector]

Too extremely tired.

Must go complete homework.

[Heron TSG]

The math department forgot to schedule a Calc III class, and the principal was against it in the first place. Therefore, I only have one semester of math this year. This year is going to blow unless I can somehow save enough to pay for credits to take some math down at the community college.

[Angel Of Death]

My internet connection has slowed down to the point where it's driving me goddamn insane.

[Gunner-Chan]

I'm sad because either steam didn't notify me some time ago about stuff someone tried to give me, or they just didn't pop up.

And now they seem to be gone or expired. Which makes me sad since I realize Cag wanted to play Magicka and tried to give me stuff for it. .<

[Vector]

Dunno why, but I'm just vaguely depressed.  And I feel stressed, overworked, and behind.  On everything.

[KaelGotDwarves]

I spoke to my father before he went to bed. He asked me for a leg and foot massage. So I, being the local semi-professional masseuse, ended up having to do it. My mum is too old and tired for this shit.

His legs, once the legs of a man who used to kick my arse in soccer, tennis, basketball, running, any sport you could imagine... were now spotted and white as a zombie's. He's a diabetic who has been lucky to live this long and well.

Well hell, Da. I'm proud of you, in spite of all the bullshit we still go through. Hope we still have a few more years so I can prove to you that I'm the son you always wanted.

Dunno why, but I'm just vaguely depressed.  And I feel stressed, overworked, and behind.  On everything.

*hugs* I'll PM you soon.

[Vector]

It's not like that.  I don't know fucking anything.

I wanna talk to Professor... I don't have a name for her.  Not yet.  But I really want to talk to her.  She's the one who is trying to get me to write this honors thesis, and I really want to talk to her and ask about the students in her crazy department.

[Euld]

Got my butt kicked in Terraria.

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Decided to summon the Eye of Cthulu and try out my new gold sword on it.  Had no idea it would summon deep underground @_@  I had absolutely no room to dodge and got owned hard.  Ah well, lesson learned.

[Vector]

*shrug*

Guess it didn't sink in the first twenty times.

[Truean]

God I'm a horrible person sometimes.

So're we all. *Internet Hug?*

EDIT: Added some emphasis to the quote for clarity.

Thanks, I'll take it, if you'd be so kind. [deflated, hugs]

I'm not sure I like what I'm becoming. My first instinct is always to "prove" things, gather evidence, etc. Just because it works at work, doesn't mean it works outside it.

Inclinations to prove things not serving me well:
1.) For example, I hired a freaking private investigator instead of talking to my friend, who is now in rehab, about why she didn't take the money though she didn't have food (drugs). Why didn't I just talk to her instead?
2.) Before that, instead of talking to her, I tried to deceive her in order to give her the money she needed for food, again, instead of talking to her. To be fair she wasn't accepting it when I offered, but I don't think that's an excuse necessarily.
3.) Whenever I hear a story that's honestly quite tragic, I'm not thinking about the human components of it, only the legal. I just used the phrase "human components," that tells me something right there. I don't see a murder victim, I see elements of a crime and defenses to it. I don't see a poverty stricken family, I see the legal processes that go with that. Same idea. I do take some comfort in the fact that I came by it honestly, but I still don't like that my mind works that way. It's just numb....
4.) I'm overall not a passive, contemplative person, as I'd like to be. I'm active, and to be honest, aggressive. I used to tell myself this was pretty much camouflage for appearing straight, and while that might be partially true, it partially isn't. I still do it in those rare settings that's not an issue.
5.) I never quite relax about things, any of them.
6.) I'm also drinking more than I'd like to compensate for numerous things lately. I truthfully don't think I'm an alcoholic, but then that would be what an alcoholic might say. That's troubling. Perhaps I'll have a talk with someone next time I visit my friend to make sure.
7.)  Makes me wonder what the hell is wrong with me.

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Stuff like crystal meth aka ice etc only lasts a VERY short while. e.g. u get really high for like 30 seconds, then you need another hit to maintain that feeling. And it ain't cheap per gram pr whatever they sell it as so basically you can consume as much as you have in $$$$. There's a killer hangover effect though, but the users just take even more to cover that feeling up.

Apparently yes, that seems to be about what I'm hearing. Explains where her money went.

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Oi hey, stop looking there. At that past deal. Go a bit back and look at the first thing you typed. "after some rehab". Your friend is dealing with this addiction yeah? Trying to make an improvement. You did exactly what you wanted, you helped your friend deal with whatever issue they were having that was starving their family of money. And you realized how much your friend cares about you as a bonus.

 I really don't know enough about the situation to say for sure, but it seems you were a key part in getting your friend into rehab. If you didn't do what you did and travel down that path would the situation be better than it is now?

 Kick back and have a cool one, you are an awesome person. Even awesome enough that your friend is chummy enough to tell you this. I would make some comment on having balls to do this but I don't know if that sort of joke would be ironic or super ironic.

I appreciate that, honestly. I wonder if I could've gone about it differently, better. Less lying/more openness? Granted, with this kinda thing, it's quite possible individuals who are addicted would lie about their habit, but it appears she doesn't....

Don't get me wrong, I'm very glad she's in rehab.

[Duke 2.0]

1.) For example, I hired a freaking private investigator instead of talking to my friend, who is now in rehab, about why she didn't take the money though she didn't have food (drugs). Why didn't I just talk to her instead?
2.) Before that, instead of talking to her, I tried to deceive her in order to give her the money she needed for food, again, instead of talking to her. To be fair she wasn't accepting it when I offered, but I don't think that's an excuse necessarily.

 I dunno, it seems just talking to an addict in such a situation would cause them to run away and refuse the help in the same way she refused the money. For me there are some situations where I'm trapped, there is nowhere left to run and the habit breaks down. She may not have gone in so well if you didn't have a PI ready.

 Although really this is just justifying your actions through the end results and not addressing the base concerns you are having.

 For that I think you need a bit of a rest after being really tired and frustrated and confused. Hang onto that mood whiplash for your resolutions. Hang out with your friends and realize the goodness of their company. You can pull through it like the rest of us can. Let's make it buddy.

[Truean]

1.) For example, I hired a freaking private investigator instead of talking to my friend, who is now in rehab, about why she didn't take the money though she didn't have food (drugs). Why didn't I just talk to her instead?
2.) Before that, instead of talking to her, I tried to deceive her in order to give her the money she needed for food, again, instead of talking to her. To be fair she wasn't accepting it when I offered, but I don't think that's an excuse necessarily.

 I dunno, it seems just talking to an addict in such a situation would cause them to run away and refuse the help in the same way she refused the money. For me there are some situations where I'm trapped, there is nowhere left to run and the habit breaks down. She may not have gone in so well if you didn't have a PI ready.

 Although really this is just justifying your actions through the end results and not addressing the base concerns you are having.

 For that I think you need a bit of a rest after being really tired and frustrated and confused. Hang onto that mood whiplash for your resolutions. Hang out with your friends and realize the goodness of their company. You can pull through it like the rest of us can. Let's make it buddy.

I hope you're right, honestly.