Bleh jobs. I'm already only getting 3 hours at work per day, and for the second time now they've cut me from the floor as soon as I come in, because UPS can't afford to pay me for my scheduled shift. I can't live off of 15 hours of minimum-wage work per week, let alone 12! It's simply not sustainable.
For now, I'm back to job hunting once more. I can't just "go to school, and wait for the economy to get better," as friends and family have advised me, because I can't even afford to live, eat, and have a home right now, let alone afford tuition, bills, or pay what debts I have. Hell, I haven't even been able to go grocery shopping for months, and have been subsisting on bulk items like rice, beans, breads, and pasta... and taking advantage of any free meals anyone I know is offering.
After more than a year of fruitlessly hunting for decent work in my area, I've settled for what crappy jobs I can find, which amount to little more than a drop in a bucket. It's all I can do to just keep trying, doing what work I have as much as I can, and throwing enough applications out there, whether or not I'm qualified, in hopes that one of them sticks... and possibly won't turn around and screw me and my financial plans over once I'm hired in.
The clock is ticking down to me being completely destitute, and with each day passing I am having a harder and harder time seeing this getting better. Everything in me is screaming to leave... go anywhere else in hopes that things are better, though I know they're not. Just have to keep trying, even if it feels fucking hopeless.
Ugh. I hate this all.