I just got my diploma marks form last semester. In Pure Math 30 and Physics 30, I scored higher than my in-class final and brought up my average. My final marks right now are at 90. For English 30-1, I went in with 83 in-class. I scored 75 on the diploma and got 58 on the written component. When I came out of the written section, I thought it was my best work yet, I got 80s in-class throughout the year. Frankly I was expecting better of myself. So now I have a 79 for my final mark in English and am just 1 percent shy of getting honors.
1 freaking percent. I've gotten honors 4-5 years running, and was so sure I had done well on my diplomas. The only final mark that I can compare this to is my grade 10 Phys Ed where I got 63, because I fail at sports and physical activity. I've never gotten below 85 in any of my core subjects before and I feel devastated. I set my standards too high and let myself down.
I guess it'll be okay. I still have conditional acceptance to the post-secondary course I wanted. I don't think essays and pulling insight from Shakespeare should play too heavily in CNC Machining.
Although, now I have to contend with Social 30-1, self-taught, and it might wind up being harder for me than English. I wonder if I'll graduate with high enough marks for NAIT to still let me in...
tl;dr
I fail at English, especially writing critical essays and creative responses, and feel depressed over not getting honors.
Edit: If I did the math correctly (and I'm confident I did) I must have aced the multiple choice with a 92. The written and multiple choice were each worth 50 percent of the diploma. (0.75-(0.58/2))*2 = 0.92 (mc/2)+(wr/2)=Final