Tried to kill myself again today.
It's not been a very good day...
MoM why? If you died do you know how I would feel? I would be shattered, I feel that I've come to know someone and before my eyes they die. And what about Yumi? How will she react? If you really want to die, then consider everyone else. I dont want people to die. Please just find something that you want on this world or someone who depends on you. THink what would happen to them.
The old "I am selfish so I want you to be selfless" argument really gets my goat.
I'm sorry for any roughness. I am very tired of suicide watch. Guess I just need to go do something else, or something, or find friends who don't collapse into puddles of self-loathing quite so easily.
I'm not talking about you, MoM, I'm talking about the frequent suicides at my old high school and a particularly irritating old friend.
Let us hope your pain diminishes someday soon. I, too, recommend finding some better help than we can offer--for your own sake.
^ Where by diminishes I don't actually mean "ends in an irreversible and nasty sort of way." Or "an irreversible and theoretically-pleasant-but-actually-not-so-great way." Or, since all methods are irreversible thanks to the directionality of time, I'll just put my foot in my mouth.
... Here, have another euphemism. I've got lots.
Fuck it. Be happier, don't die, get professional help.
Mumble mumble I hate these situations blah blah