It's not that being trans doesn't make any sense. It's that it doesn't make any sense that I'm trans. Fuck, none of this makes any sense at all. What do I even do? I have no idea how to identify. No matter what I choose there's going to be something wrong with the decision. I don't think I'll end up identifying like that, I just...well, wish I could. But I'm stuck in the middle, and I hate it here.
You can only be who you are. So long as you're happy, what does it matter who that is? So long as you're not doing anything that's harming other people, be who you are. It took a long time for me to realize that, myself (and I wasn't even facing anything particularly difficult!), but when I did, life got a whole lot easier. *hug* People are there for you. Chin up. It's not an easy road, but in the end, if it makes you happy, it's worth it.
This is good advice. I have a friend who is in a similar boat. Just identify as who you are and what you do and are interested in... and don't let that others tend to identify and assume a lot of things about other people based on their biological sex stop you from being who you are. There are a lot of resources for helping folks figure things out too... in fact, my sister is majoring in counseling and communications with a focus on LGBT folks. I can ask her for advice if you'd like; just drop me a PM.
Well, my mom seems to be enjoying insulting my cooking and calling me dumb.
I shouldn't cry about that anymore, but I still do.
Surely the best way to defy her is to be awesome despite her disencouragement. You seem to be doing that fine already.
Yeah, my only suggestion would be to only give her words the value that they're worth. Her griping sounds pretty angry, baseless, and passive-aggressive to me, so I'd not value it terribly highly. Still sucks, no doubt... but you know you're better than she might try to make you think.