Yeah, I'm conflicted about leaving school. On the one hand, I love mathematics. On the other hand, going to school is killing me and/or driving me insane. I kind of consider "not dying or being insane" more important than "Vector gets to go to class." But dammit, I love this place. It may be killing me, but I love it.
This may be the best decision I've ever made, but it's still tearing me up internally. You see, on the "staying" side is "Mathematics, comrades from school (no close friends, but at least I have comrades), don't have to live with parents, cost to parents." It's mostly the mathematics and the cost to my parents; I feel really, really bad for them.
On the "going" side is "be less crazy, get time to read books, learn how to cook reasonable food before I have to live by myself, time to become more mathematically mature so that school makes me less crazy, learn how to handle stress, talk to psychologist about being less anxious all the time, figure out moodswings. Furthermore, restart semester next year in courses I'm interested in, rather than two applied-side math courses that were hiding in purity, a horrible course in linguistics, and Professor Poland's class (which is, of course, wonderful)."
There's no real reason to stay, other than the fact that it's a major lifestyle change for the next year or so. I think I'll be okay. I think it's the right idea. I just wish I didn't have to make this decision.
And here's the solution... it may be a little bit difficult to read/follow, but it's all there.
In case you can't see that bit at the bottom, I think the Golem eats people.