Had a massive rant written out.
Don't even want to bother again.
Basically, I got angry about some injustices in the past (one of which was a professor who failed my mom and made her lose her chance at a degree for the heck of it) and my mom responded with "You have been pampered all your life. This world is not fair." I told her that I knew that, but even if it wasn't fair we should try to make it better.
She started mocking me and how I've had violent outbursts and done stupid things (things I really, really regret and really do not like talking about) and how I've gotten away with it so easily (i.e. I didn't get expelled and failed in everything, as well as beaten up) and how I've been so 'protected' and my sisters join in and they started joking about 'the poor little kid' and 'he could get psychological harm' and it really got on my nerves.
Now I feel really stupid and weak and I hate myself and apparently all the progress I've made on telling wrong from right is ruined for a good while when I thought I was finally getting things figured out and it makes me even angrier at myself that such a tiny idiotic thing could mess me up so much.
C! Your family's just ignorant and narrow-minded, you are so much greater than them in that regard. as far as i can tell, they think that because the world isnt fair now it has to always be this way. it doesnt have to be, which you realise. you
can tell right from wrong, much better than they. to them it's just grey, which we all know is fairly boring and bland of a color.
your parents have settled, you dont have to. i hope your siblings will come around too, but you can always rely on yourself and we'll do our best to be dependable too
i believe in you, we're all rooting for you! we love you C!