And I feel like I'm always surrounded by people who don't repress a damn thing. Who are always willing to tear everything down and make life completely dysfunctional for everyone with reckless abandon if they don't like something. And I've always felt like it's fallen on me to be the reasonable go-between who keeps things operating between all these crazy fucking people, or swallows my own baggage down because the other party is not capable of doing and the results will be catastrophic if someone doesn't volunteer to be the mature one.
Guh. It's like my childhood in half a paragraph! Also, my friends in college! Maybe it's not the drama I hate, but the necessity of clamming up about my own problems whenever it rears its mangy head. Bay12 has really been a lifesaver in terms of being able to express what I'm thinking and that sort of thing, but it sounds to me like you guys have it worse because forum posts don't really do it for you. Which is kind of understandable; I just don't have many people to talk
to anymore, whereas it sounds to me as though you have less of a problem with absence and more of a problem with a
very present and malevolently oppressive social reality. Or something of that nature.
... gosh this is an uncheery post. *fart noises for instant humor*
Also, perhaps having learned from my example, final exams are coming too quickly. The exams themselves are less threatening than the looming horde of semester-long projects, at least one of which is in "How am I even going to do this" mode, and the others merely in "How am I even going to find time to do this".