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[Arx]

I now literally weigh 100 lbs soaking wet. I guess I'm not having one relapse--more like two.

Time for some drastic life changes.

I know a little of how that feels. Good luck.

Also Yoink your microwave finally broke.

[Yoink]

Wait, what? But I was just using it before I went to bed ;_;

[Descan]

* Descan is sad he doesn't message his friends more. ;_;

[itisnotlogical]

For some reason, I felt compelled to write about myself growing up and how the Internet played a part in shaping me as an individual. I came to a very emotional event in my life and started crying in the school's lobby. Apparently, I'm still as upset about it as I was way back when I was four years old. I thought I'd come to terms with it, but I suppose I just buried it.

[Arx]

Wait, what? But I was just using it before I went to bed ;_;

It seems to be working now. Must have just been a glitch in the matrix.

[Yoink]

For some reason, I felt compelled to write about myself growing up and how the Internet played a part in shaping me as an individual. I came to a very emotional event in my life and started crying in the school's lobby. Apparently, I'm still as upset about it as I was way back when I was four years old. I thought I'd come to terms with it, but I suppose I just buried it.

I think I can relate. I still feel terrible for that one time I threw my new Judge Dredd playset off the table and shouted at my mother just because the text on the box it came in said the character I liked most was a 'bad guy'. I was about four then, and I'm twenty-two (it hurts to type that) now, so... I dunno, it's weird.

[Tack]

The only thing that bugs me about it is that it doesn't quite seamlessly loop.

You Have No Idea.
But it would be triple the size if I were to make it seamless.

I'm too shy to go for jogs any more, or to start going to the gym, and I've gotten far too used to eating more than once a day.

1. I can definitely feel the issues with jogging if you live northside. Everyone there is like 45 and valiantly attempting to stave off death by being the fittest upper-middle-class peoples of indeterminate skin color they can be. (Not at all bitter)

But my advice would be to join a 24hr gym (like Snap) and go at 2am. Nobody is there at 2am. Seriously, the self-conscious ones go at midnight, and are out by 1-1:30. 2am is just you (Plus whoever you take along for safety reasons).

[Neonivek]

So down to two friends...

One of them used and abused me and put me in a very precarious situation along with threatening to hurt me... So I broke it off with him.

While the other abandoned me for more fun and interesting people and probably won't even message me unless he needs something.

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So at this point I am officially friendless...

I always kind of known it would happen, I hung onto the very few friends I had and have such trouble making new ones.

[Yoink]

@Tack: I should do that, I guess.
I imagine anyone else there at that time would fall into the same category and thus not be the sort to bother me anyway.

Now, to procrastinate about this for a few more months/years...

[Rolan7]

I now literally weigh 100 lbs soaking wet. I guess I'm not having one relapse--more like two.

Time for some drastic life changes.

Is it bad that I'm kind of jealous? :-/ I can't seem to get back to the super-skinny exercise freak I used to be.
I'm too shy to go for jogs any more, or to start going to the gym, and I've gotten far too used to eating more than once a day.

Hope your weight reaches your preferred level soon. Good luck.
_{(Is that the proper thing to say here? Heck if I know.)}

I don't see anything wrong with what you said...  Though underweight is no picnic.

I was a decent weight and very athletic until I left home for the first time, at which point I stopped exercising and eating much.  I worried about getting fat a lot, even as my family grew more and more concerned about my ribs.  I wasn't anywhere close to a serious anorexia case, but I might have been on a path to it.  Fortunately I had to move back home, where people pressured me to eat and exercise.

I think the lack of energy led to depression, which led to not eating or being active.  Vicious cycles are the worst.  Nowadays I don't run or bicycle anymore, and sometimes I get stressed and barely eat for a few days, but... (digs out scale, checks weight)
Huh.  Apparently I'm 10 pounds heavier than I thought I was.  That's actually kinda scary.  I was going for a brief walk nearly every day until Christmas stress got to me...  Guess I need to bring that back.

Yoink, I'll go for long awkward walks if you will  (:

[TheDarkStar]

It's snowing. In April.

Why does this place have to be so cold  .

[Fniff]

A friend of mine just got out of the hospital. His heart failed due to him getting atrial fibrillation.
He's in his early twenties.

[WillowLuman]

Jeez. I'm glad he made it through, but that's scary. I hope he can get treatment. Any idea what may have caused it?

[mastahcheese]

So down to two friends...

One of them used and abused me and put me in a very precarious situation along with threatening to hurt me... So I broke it off with him.

While the other abandoned me for more fun and interesting people and probably won't even message me unless he needs something.

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So at this point I am officially friendless...

I always kind of known it would happen, I hung onto the very few friends I had and have such trouble making new ones.

I consider you a friend, for however much that's worth. 

[Yoink]

I don't see anything wrong with what you said...  Though underweight is no picnic.

I was a decent weight and very athletic until I left home for the first time, at which point I stopped exercising and eating much.  I worried about getting fat a lot, even as my family grew more and more concerned about my ribs.  I wasn't anywhere close to a serious anorexia case, but I might have been on a path to it.  Fortunately I had to move back home, where people pressured me to eat and exercise.

I think the lack of energy led to depression, which led to not eating or being active.  Vicious cycles are the worst.  Nowadays I don't run or bicycle anymore, and sometimes I get stressed and barely eat for a few days, but... (digs out scale, checks weight)
Huh.  Apparently I'm 10 pounds heavier than I thought I was.  That's actually kinda scary.  I was going for a brief walk nearly every day until Christmas stress got to me...  Guess I need to bring that back.

Yoink, I'll go for long awkward walks if you will  (:

Ha, alright! Walks I can do.
I will just have to work out where there is to walk to around here. Preferably that doesn't involved getting stabbed.
Heck, maybe for starters I could walk to my old suburb and get those $1 wraps I've been missing so much. It's only a ten minute bus ride from here.

Edit: I can't help but wonder if that first line was an intentional pun or not. Clever.
And the main problem I have is that my 'default' weight has become what is was after a long period of barely eating, and I feel awful and panic if it raises even a little bit above that. I'll just have to get my arse in gear and start exercising.