Nosocomial disease poking at family and me x_x Sick parents and I.
Yaaay weekend~
I already cancelled our next appointment, and I told my Mom to just ignore calls from the place.
He's already lost his patience with me, there's just nothing more I think can be done.
I hate to be that one guy, but speaking as someone who has Cyclical Depression (and is a horrendous cynic) and has gone through this sort of thing more times than I can count - You are being incredibly self destructive. You messed up, so you quit, instead of facing the fact that you messed up and bucking up and moving on. You are right, Joshua, you DID waste his time, but not by messing up - But by quitting and hiding from the problem instead of facing it like a (wo?)man.
I just don't know man, this is just one of those things where no matter what I do, it feels like I'm making an awful bad decision.
Kuya? :O I think its in your thinking of how these things are. Somewhat like self-reinforcement.
Ya need to believe you can, first of all. The usual thing in these kinds of situations are that thoughts that say 'NO U' in a generally negative way will happen--these don't describe you in your whole totality. Think about it--why would you feel bad if these things are
of you?
Next was that thing on your friend (or therapist) got presumably
. This doesn't mean he gives up on you, like, you're a lost cause. Maybe its the things on your side that aren't your fault at all, but what others maybe told you before :O Either way,
You can do this! despite getting the idea that you can't.
Feelings, in part, aren't fully accurate when in these kinds of situations (personally, I'm an emotional wreck years ago
So I can totally relate...and then nudged myself to study why I was a wreck ._. stuff like that). These feelings are more like responses to observations or perceptions--like if you feel threatened, there's this feeling of
D: or trepidation that comes up. Or on the trusting of others, there's the reluctance feeling which nudges into a guarded personality. Maybe challenge those feelings? Trust others as well as yourself! One solution out of many.
But don't give up. You can do this thing! Reinforce thyself with positive beliefs, coupled with action.
"I can do this." O__O