I appreciate it, but I'm hardly a great role model. I am far from somebody to emulate.
I'm incredibly depressed. Having seen how people are when things don't go their way, I can't stand humanity.
I spent my entire life learning the right answers to things and the way things should be done only to meet insistently complaining / corrupt people who make my life unbearable under the implied theory that if they whine enough, they will be given what they want. What actually occurs is that I develop an ulcer, depression, anxiety, and a total understanding of movie aliens' desire to eradicate all humans.... They still don't get what they want but now they blame me despite it being entirely their fault.
Gee, the felons are unhappy? It's almost like they've committed a crime the government has sufficient evidence to prove and as if somebody's punishing them....
Wow, the business owner doesn't wanna pay taxes or follow rules? It's almost as if he's part of a larger society with the IRS traditionally collecting taxes on things....
People don't wanna pay for my services? It's almost as if I went to school and did internships/clerking for over 10 years and they simply don't like the real world being told to them.... This includes the fact that results can't be purchased (morally and ethically).
I just can't stand it anymore: the incessant complaining I am surrounded by. When I discuss something with somebody, I don't want to hear their political ideology, or how that's unfair, or "how it was 30 years ago" or whatever. Could not possibly care less.... My eyes are glazing over, and your lips are moving but it's all sounding like the same non distinct bitching I hear all the time.... [Twitch]. I wish you'd just leave. I wish you'd get another lawyer, if you could find somebody to listen to your shit without cutting you off, which I'm going to have to do. The judge won't give two flying shits what "you think" things are or that you're unhappy with it. Did you not figure it out with the whole being handcuffed, arrested, fingerprinted, thrown in jail, having to post bail, etc thing that nobody gives a flying crap what the prisoner (that's you) in all of this thinks on some harebrained theory. (no question mark). Yes, yes, let's procrastinate and bitch some more instead of deal with the thing.... [Sighs...]. And naturally you won't be voluntarily paying me and all of this is something you consider my fault huh? I will remember this the next time anybody comes around and I won't give a flying crap / be unable to take the case due to inability to put up with this drama crap.
And then, when I do get a job interview .... They ask that question in stunned disbelief, "Why wouldn't you wanna be a lawyer anymore?"
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