IDK if this should go here or the terrified thread, but whatever.
I apparently have been ignoring my body's needs for long enough that I lost the ability to tell if I'm hungry. It just started with me not eating breakfast because I had to get something done and I didn't have time, and then not preparing my lunch for the same reasons, which sucked for the first few days, but the feeling of being hungry stopped after a week or so, and I just... stopped eating. I wasn't intentionally starving myself, but I just didn't eat. I pretty much only ate dinner, and that only because I was constantly reminded of it, every single day. Fast forward a few months, and now, when I'm trying to fix all of these habits I dropped (like eating and sleeping), I just don't feel hungry, pretty much at all, regardless of how much I need to eat.
In addition, I just got back from the holiday road trip to see my relatives. My grandparents on my mothers side... *sigh*. My grandmother literally said "Did you know that everything they teach you in schools is false?", and meant it. When my mother, standing not 5 feet away, taught chemistry, and the only reason she quit was because she was letting it consume her life. This same grandmother also felt that scientific papers should include the researcher's feelings, that nothing in the real world is real (which I could accept, if she didn't use it to justify some of the other stuff she talked about), and that her scabies medication made it worse, while some 'cure' she found and ordered worked great, because her arm ached when she used the medication, which IIRC, she only used twice. My great-grandmother is losing her memories (thought my sister was my aunt, thought that my great-grandfather was alive, etc.). My grandfather has his own slew of problems, and was mad at my grandmother because she threw away the six non-functioning vacuum cleaners he had squirreled away in her basement.
Sorry bout that wall o text, just needed to vent some feels.