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[Cryxis, Prince of Doom]

*Cryxis Bear hugs TA
That ummm that just sucks
Im sorry.........
Are you physically ok? Like you didn't get physically harmed did you?
I hope you're ok.........

[Arx]

What is it with Bay12 parents and being horrendous?

We're a liberal, supportive and non-judgmental community that's relatively easy to hide from an abuser. I imagine it's also part of the reason there are so many people with depression and such as well.

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That feeling when your mother hits you in the head with a plastic container multiple times, pours water over your head (as you're wearing dry clothes), then proceeds to remove your shirt because 'the sleeves are too long' and yells in your face and/or drags you by the hair as you cry and/or when you try to walk away. That's only a summary of what she did, really.

Because you didn't put away the dishes.

That was my sad thing for yesterday, though.

My mother left me at home, all alone, on Christmas day— to go to her boyfriend's house.

I can offer only sympathy.

[smeeprocket]

I just want to give all of you guys big bear hugs. I wish I could do something to make things better.

[scrdest]

The wiki page for sociopath redirects to psychopath.

there is a notable difference. Sociopaths are unable to feel empathy. Studies done on a lot of top level CEOs actually showed a good chunk of them were either sociopaths or had less of an ability to feel empathy and were borderline sociopath. You can exist in society peacefully and be one, you just do not give a shit about what happens to other people, and will crush them if they get in your way.

Psychopaths have altered responses to fear and aggression, and are more likely to be violent. They will be the ones that go on killing sprees while the sociopath is scamming the elderly out of their life savings.

Not that sociopaths can't be killers.

Remember, quoting Truean = bad.

Her parents are also bad. I'd say more sociopaths than psychopaths, but I'm not an expert. Hope your coming year looks better, Tru  =/

why is quoting truean bad?

No, they aren't. They are both deprecated nowadays, with the equivalent diagnosis being APD (Antisocial Personality Disorder), and it went psychopathy->sociopathy->APD, so psychopathy is the most outdated. It's the same thing, just under a new name/rolled up into one. And lack of empathy is not the only criterion of -pathy, whichever we're using. Narcissists, for example, are also low in empathy, so are some people subclinical for a personality disorder.

[Caz]

What is it with Bay12 parents and being horrendous?

The ones with good parents probably aren't posting about how awesome they are.

[Neonivek]

How many times have your parents done something wonderful and you went "Wow! My Dad just made me breakfast in the middle of the night because I just flown in from another country! Bay12 gotta hear about this!"?

[WillowLuman]

To everyone who's holiday has been less than stellar, I offer condolences. Remember that there's always more days in the year and that Bay12 is always here for you.

How many times have your parents done something wonderful and you went "Wow! My Dad just made me breakfast in the middle of the night because I just flown in from another country! Bay12 gotta hear about this!"?

Stuff like that would probably appear on the happy thread, which does not have a 100% overlap in readership with this one. Though must such posts are "I got to see my mom again this week" or "hanging with my parents for X break" and not much more.

Reading this thread really ought to make me not take my awesome parents for granted, though. I'm going to go give them a hug.

[Descan]

* Descan throws a Bay12 Christmas party at the ☼Platinum Statue☼

[Arx]

* Arx cancels sleep: attending party

[LordSlowpoke]

* LordSlowpoke cancels platinum statue: throwing descan

[mastahcheese]

Food poisoniiiiiiiing...

I don't want to eat ever again

*Goes back to the bathroom* ;_;

[Tawa]

* Descan throws a Bay12 Christmas party at the ☼Platinum Statue☼

* Tawarochir cancels plan game: attending party

Food poisoniiiiiiiing...

I don't want to eat ever again

*Goes back to the bathroom* ;_;

That's never fun.

[JoshuaFH]

I wonder if there's something inside of me that's just plain afraid of happiness. At the end of each day, I'm just washed over with the same old feelings of loneliness and worthlessness that has pestered me forever now. Whenever I think of actually taking action to change that, to do something that would actually change the makeup of my life and possibly alter my inert but miserable life, my mind spins into a hypothesis:

I try to think of how life, normal everyday life, would look like, would feel like, if I were just happy. It's a really hard thing to picture, cause I'm honestly not sure. It seems dreamlike, just utterly surreal. It doesn't seem possible. I can get close though, but when I get close, my body naturally tenses up in fear. Natural, instinctive fear. The reasoning I can think of, is that the reference points I do possess for this state are the periods of my life where I've believed sincerely that things were taking an upturn, that things were getting better, that I was finally on the golden path to happiness that I've longed for for so long, but now history knows where simply the preceding events to abominable periods of terrible and crushing anxiety and depression that knocks me down, filling my life with turmoil and misery for months at a time.

Once things finally calm down, once the burning self-hatred finally smolders, and life returns to the dreary state of 'existing' in endless days of pointless sadness, each day segueing into the next without skip, and I'm left to gaze navel-ward as I ponder every mistake in my life leading up to this point. It's a state of affairs that mocks life, that offends the intentions of evolution, but it's the course of life that is separating me from another pleasant lie leading into another crushing stage of depression. It would have been best if I never existed.

[smeeprocket]

I wonder if there's something inside of me that's just plain afraid of happiness. At the end of each day, I'm just washed over with the same old feelings of loneliness and worthlessness that has pestered me forever now. Whenever I think of actually taking action to change that, to do something that would actually change the makeup of my life and possibly alter my inert but miserable life, my mind spins into a hypothesis:

I try to think of how life, normal everyday life, would look like, would feel like, if I were just happy. It's a really hard thing to picture, cause I'm honestly not sure. It seems dreamlike, just utterly surreal. It doesn't seem possible. I can get close though, but when I get close, my body naturally tenses up in fear. Natural, instinctive fear. The reasoning I can think of, is that the reference points I do possess for this state are the periods of my life where I've believed sincerely that things were taking an upturn, that things were getting better, that I was finally on the golden path to happiness that I've longed for for so long, but now history knows where simply the preceding events to abominable periods of terrible and crushing anxiety and depression that knocks me down, filling my life with turmoil and misery for months at a time.

Once things finally calm down, once the burning self-hatred finally smolders, and life returns to the dreary state of 'existing' in endless days of pointless sadness, each day segueing into the next without skip, and I'm left to gaze navel-ward as I ponder every mistake in my life leading up to this point. It's a state of affairs that mocks life, that offends the intentions of evolution, but it's the course of life that is separating me from another pleasant lie leading into another crushing stage of depression. It would have been best if I never existed.

Don't say that, it's not true at all. You matter. You are important.

Life goes up and down a lot. Sometimes more down than up. I know it's easier said than done, but try to appreciate the good times -while- they happen. You can be prepared for the worst and still mostly embrace the good stuff happening around you.

You're not worthless. I know that feeling. That little voice in the back of your head that tells you you aren't good for anything, that you'll fuck up whatever you attempt. It becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy though. Just know that you have worth.

[Spehss _]

Playing guitar just isn't fun. I've gotten out of the habit of playing, it's hard to get back into the habit of playing. It's just...eh. Meh. Bleh. Can't stay focused on it. Don't feel excited to play. It's just become a thing I could do, if I felt like it. And I don't feel like it. And that's a bummer.