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[WillowLuman]

Huh.

I actually slept well for once last night.

Sorry, m8s.

Congratz! A good night's sleep is a wonderful thing that people often take for granted.

[Helgoland]

Hans, go kick ass like the guy you took your forum name from!

Also wanting control is not so bad or uncommon. Just take care that the desire doesn't eat you up from inside.

[flabort]

Congratz! A good night's sleep is a wonderful thing that people often take for granted.

And don't I know it. Last time that I got a good night's sleep was.... Huh. I think I was 12.

[Descan]

Huh.

I actually slept well for once last night.

Sorry, m8s.

Stop stealing sleep from the rest of them.

[Bauglir]

Dammit. It looks like it only took a month for my immune system to stop working. Apparently hospital-employment immunity doesn't stick around long. If this persists it's gonna make for a loooooooong week, and not in the good way where I have time to work on all the stuff I want to. Like if I could stop time or something.

[Spehss _]

Been feeling tired and shitty all weekend. Haven't done anything. Haven't accomplished anything. Wasted the weekend. Was probably rude to cute-girl-living-in-the-dorm-across-the-hall when she happened to walk by and say hi to me but screw it I'm tired and can't be arsed with even attempting to be socially competent or polite.

Really want to just go to sleep. Need to finish homework first.

uuuuuuuuugh. Feel like I need another weekend to recover from my lousy weekend.

[Sirus]

I keep reading every instance if the word luck on this page as fuck.

Get your mind out of the lucking gutter.

[Orange Wizard]

I keep reading every instance if the word luck on this page as fuck.

Get your mind out of the lucking gutter.

Stop ducking around.

It's Sirius. He's a trucking trucker, not a ducking trucker. Anyway, let's stop mucking about.

[MaximumZero]

Guys, these are sucking pretty bad.

[hops]

Cue my happy being ruined after feeling again that I'm a freak.

Gee thanks, Youtube.

[Worldmaster27]

Youtube lies.

Pancakes are not freaks.

[Bauglir]

Cue my happy being ruined after feeling again that I'm a freak.

Gee thanks, Youtube.

Freaking awesome, that is.

[BadLemonsXI]

Cue my happy being ruined after feeling again that I'm a freak.

Gee thanks, Youtube.

Freaking awesome, that is.

Yep. That is.

[Orange Wizard]

Wait, why is Objective listening to Youtube? He can't be that much of a freak, can he? I mean, more so than any other Bay12er?

[acetech09]

Depression sucks, and it makes no fucking sense.

In one hour, I went from saying goodnight to the one alive person I truly like to be around, to having a mental argument with myself that self-harm/self-termination isn't a very good idea. I pulled out my emergency nostalgia/good times playlist and sobbed for a while.

I'm getting better at this, though. Last time this happened, I ended up in the hospital, slightly bleeding, with a security officer sitting next to me to prevent me from doing anything "you would regret", which is quite an ironic phrase in that context.

Also, this reminds me of when I when I made my father feel bad - I told him that I didn't want to have kids, because (roughly paraphrasing) "I didn't want to have a childhood like I did". He interpreted that as him being a bad parent. In reality, it's because this mental shit is most definitely genetic, runs in the family, and nobody deserves to go what I'm going through. I didn't have the balls to tell my dad that, though. I guess it's just another thing to add to the gigantic pile of fuckups I can reminisce about nightly.