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[Tack]

I realize everyone has incredibly dark moments, in a very offhand "yes that probably happens" kind of way.
But I have trouble remembering the times I had it myself. I know I've felt that way in the past, but I just can't take it seriously now.

So I guess to all suicidalists, take heart from that. You'll live on, grow old, and look back fondly on how much of a tool you were.

[Skyrunner]

Gad a fight with mother. I feel so useless and nobody can help me. Neither do I get help other than "you must do better" from anyone. And my future kinda hinges on this in a way, what with grade history, but I can't motivate myself to do even a minimum of studying, not withstanding the fact that all people are studying minimum three hours a day and I'm going to get stomped. My grades speak for themselves, and they're all telling the world that this student here is a fine example of someone not on the top and you don't want her... this upcoming test may or may not be my last that counts but I still can't give a damn and I hate myself for not being able to. Etc etc ramble ramble
Also everyday life increasingly bores me. It's always the same dullness. Doesn't mean I feel nothing, but eh. Also, til droll doesn't mean what I thought it means.
Also, my head hurts, maybe it's all the crying slash fighting.

E: And I let my mother down, too I bet she'd be worrying that I won't be able to go to a good, named college, or not be able to get a scholarship to be able to go; I give off an aura of responsibility but I'm really nothing more than a facade.
E2: I used to give a damn, you know. I tried hard in 10th grade semester 2, and kept trying hard in 11th grade. But others apparently tried harder than me, and my rank started slipping, so I suddenly found myself void of motivation, and here I a, giving only the most superficial of damns.

[Vector]

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[Arx]

The Korean system sounds horribly toxic.

* Arx offers internet hugs

Woke up at 6. Fuck you, brain. I see that you're back to your old tricks.

I assume you didn't mean to wake up that early?

[Tack]

I need to stay awake until then. For my night job.

[IronTomato]

You guys can't comlain about waking up at six. I have to do that every day. >.<

[LordSlowpoke]

yeah? how about waking up at four thirty you scrub

[Sirus]

It's not a competition, people

[scrdest]

I woke up at six, too!

From a cat meowing at my door. Apparently, she spent a few hours meowing at my parent's door before that, so we assume she did that, then gave up and started at mine.

I'm starting to wish I had a cat again. It's completely not related to what you said whatsoever, but yeah, I do. And I shouldn't, since I'm allergic and living in a rented apartment :|

Also, Sky, I can sympathize. I had to fight my way through last year like that, and two years ago, and four years ago... and the fact that I'm a lazy bum when it comes to studying doesn't help. If your situation is, as it sounds, anything like mine, your motivation issues are that you tried your best, only to fail to improve ANYTHING, or just plain fail. Over and over. From my experience, it's more of a systematic issue, rather than a personal one.

In my case, for one of those, it was literally absurd Biology tests - with the grades from 1 to 6 (low to high) with the passing grade being anything above 1, I ended the first semester of it with the following grades: 1,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2.

But I got through. Hell, I qualified for the best university in the country, a year earlier than I should have finished school.

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And now I'm worrying I won't pass my Summer exams, that being a very real possibility, but the point stands.

[Shakerag]

So I guess to all suicidalists, take heart from that. You'll live on, grow old, and look back fondly on how much of a tool you were.

*  Results not guaranteed. 

If we're not going to lump all males/females/gay people/Christians/athiests/your-political-party-here/whatever into generalizations, let's keep up the trend for those of us to whom life is a burden. 

[Darvi]

yeah? how about waking up at four thirty you scrub

I try to wake up at 2am at the latest _{But I also try to go to bed at 6pm to balance it out}

[Tiruin]

The Korean system sounds horribly toxic.

* Arx offers internet hugs

Why can't I do anything to help thrice damnit.

* Tiruin can only offer hugs >_>

^{Well I can but...it usually always = nope. sorry :(}

[LordSlowpoke]

after a brief analysis it turns out minrtds are the same reheated stuff ever since the first generation died off

where is the messiah this bullshit genre needs but doesn't deserve

[Tiruin]

wat

[miauw62]

It's hard to make a very good minimalist RTD by virtue of them being minimalist.