I'm just gonna whine for a bit, so bear with me.
I'm on some kind of all-time endorphin low. I feel like utter crap all the time - and damn, I do have my reasons. First of all, my sleeping schedule is borked - due to reading this.bloody.forum! Can't fall asleep earlier than two, have to wake up at six. Constantly half-asleep.
Then I have to take really important exams at the end of this year. I'm supposed to be preparing, and I am, but I dunno if it's doing anything. I just have this sense of impending doom - my life so far has been long periods of slacking interspersed with short periods of feverish activity. Sometimes I feel like this time I'm gonna pay for my no-good ways.
Then I'm supposed to pass my physical aptitude test if I'm to get where I wanna get. I should be exercising, but right now my body feels like a rather ugly sack filled with wet straw. I'm usually quite fond of it, but lately its performance has been unsatisfactory.
Then I also need to get a shitload of obviously important medical papers, and therefore I have to run around (on my vacation) conversing with our wonderful bureaucratic system.
To top it off, I failed my organic chem test, while my best friend (love him) just baaaarely passed it. I'm finding myself horribly bitter about this. What exactly was better about his work to deserve a double-minus three (what kind of grade is that?) against my two? I don't know why I'm so worked up about this, but it's making me bitchier than I usually am, and that's something. I sorta hate myself for envying him, but can't stop doing it.
tl;dr: Fuck you, life. Fuck you up the butt with a splintery shovel handle. Whine over, all personnel back to their posts.