Hey, going through a similar thing right now, though with no real romantic component - randomly met an old (like way back) classmate who just started studying philosophy here at their freshmen bar crawl, and subsequently invited her (via facebook) to a mathematician's party. Very soon afterwards, she posts (openly visible) that she will have internet access "only sporadically" and thus may take a long time to reply to stuff. WTF thread material, but just so you know - nobody's special, especially in this regard :3
I feel we speak from different platforms and perspectives. I appreciate your positivity, but it's usefulness is debatable to me.
I just need to block everything out right now so I can prepare for work with a clear head.
I feel you might be overestimating your current plight.
Not meaning any offense, I don't really know you, I'm just saying it's not a good idea to ignore potentially good advice.
Yeah, and I'm saying the difference between me and Helgoland is that I don't exist in a freshman prawl. I don't have old classmates I can speak with eye to eye. I've never been to a party once, let alone something as quaintly niche as a Mathematician's Party... I'm a 24 year old grown ass fucking virgin with a job that consists of 7 hours of sitting in a room by myself, then going home and spending the remaining 17 hours sitting in a room by myself. My recent adventures include spending a solid two days building up the guts to send a single text message, and then being almost brought to tears over the fact that she's not interested in talking to me at all. The only friends I have are the ones I can barely ever speak with online over Mumble, cause our mutual interests are slowly but surely inching away from eachother, and my night schedule means we're practically never awake at the same time. It seems more and more that my daily life is just a desperate struggle with my mind to eek out the smallest motivation to do anything.
So I'm sorry if I feel like living life is the same as being trapped in an awful dream I can't wake up from.