I think I'm bound for another depression bout within the next two weeks. I did the repeat exam, and did it quite well, except one monumentally stupid mistake that puts the entire thing into question. The worst part is that if I fail again it will once again be very close to the passing treshold which will make studying again for the exam all the more annoying.
But that's beside the point now, I've got all summer to waste on that crap so there's not real way around it, I'll deal with it eventually.
What really gets to me these days is that it's summer, it's freaking hot and there's a bunch of stuff I could do with my free time but don't have the mental strenght to bring myself to do any of them. Instead I spend some time studying before going back home to sit in awkward positions on the couch just to catch a bit of the internet connection we're leeching off the neighbours. And it's a shitty connection, and I have no idea what to do with it since I can't play much games, can't really download, so all I'm left is pointless forum browsing and the occasional YT video or something.
I could draw, but that's all half assed for some reason, really hating pretty much anything I make right now. Add to that yesterdays visit from the parents which furthered the whole hating everything and everyone and I'm pretty set to be in a foul mood for a while now.
Gah, I just wish I could get shitfaced and curse my stupid drinking ass for a day or two instead of pouting about and overthinking every single thing because I've got nothing better to do.