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[Lord Inquisitor]

machine runs away, supects a trap.

[Descan]

* Descan just wanted to comfort it :cc

[Reudh]

I, uh...

Didn't know you could -stop- being a monk.

Of course, I Disrobed over a year ago. That's why I reappeared here.

Sad thread: wow, I've been here a long time. Almost too long as far as internet communities go.

I'd considered becoming a monk some years ago, but decided against it.

Hi-buddhist-five?

[bukitodinos]

Im sick..... fuck.

[Yoink]

Oh man.
My sudden Facebook-browsing spree earlier, looking through all those 'people you may know', lead me to discover that an old friend of mine died earlier this year. I never knew him all that well, but unlike so many people on that list I would have actually liked to get to know him better.

I actually thought, "Oh, it's [NAME]! I wonder how he's doing, it would be good to catch up with him sometime," and then I clicked on it and found out. I'm kindof surprised at how much this is affecting me, at first I was shocked, and now I feel really, truly sad.
My mind is just dredging up all those old primary-school memories involving this guy, and I feel really bad, especially after only having found out about it over Facebook.
First I found out an old family friend had died the other day, and now this. I feel as though I need to track down all these people I've been semi-friends with over the years and get to know them or something... But then I'm nowhere near outgoing enough for that.

[ChairmanPoo]

I think it's a good thing. That it made you sad, or rather, that you didn't feel happy about it. It's a sign of moral character to shun gloating about human miseries, I think.

[Kagus]

I feel empty today.  Don't really know why, but I've got all sorts of intangible suspicions, as I usually do.  You know, what with being one of those people who ponders every little detail and has a rampantly out-of-control hypothesis center of the brain.

I have zero energy.  I don't want to do anything.  Playing the guitar would just depress and frustrate me since I've gotten a bit rusty, and I don't feel any great urge to do it anyways.  I don't feel like playing any games, either the ones I know on my computer or ones I don't know on the net.  Don't feel like looking around for hysterical videos of funny things to cheer me up.  What's particularly interesting is that even the thought of suicide, something I generally have to deal with using a certain amount of tact and cautiousness, just seems 'lackluster'.  I'm completely numb.  I can't even be bothered to put the sheet properly back on the bed since it's been dragged off.

I kinda feel like I'd like to talk to someone, but I don't really have anyone to talk to.  Either generally or specifically in regards to how I feel now.  I'm not entirely sure what to do with myself at this point.  Briefly considered just going back to bed (as in, sleeping.  I've been lounging in bed all day anyways), but it's four in the afternoon and that just doesn't seem quite right.


Oh, wait, someone's on Facebook.  Maybe that will do something.  Or maybe I'll just avoid the subject entirely.  I'd be confused with myself, but I can't be bothered enough to be confused.  Strange feeling.

[Hanslanda]

Does this help?

Also, I know how you feel. I don't know how to help, really, but I sympathize. And also there's the video.

[kaijyuu]

I've felt like that before, and the thing that brought me out of my funk was to get obsessed over something.

[Kagus]

Great news!  I've finally felt something today, while making dinner!

On the downside, the first emotion of the day was sadness.  Ironically, I made it through the onions just fine.  It was the carrots I cried over.

Does this help?

Also, I know how you feel. I don't know how to help, really, but I sympathize. And also there's the video.

Hah.  Did actually manage to get a couple snorts and chuckles out of that.  Including the fact that a number of those clips are Norwegian in origin.

I've felt like that before, and the thing that brought me out of my funk was to get obsessed over something.

I obsess over everything.  Today, I just couldn't be bothered to think about anything.  I wasn't bored or 'searching', I just...  Didn't care.

[Vorthon]

...But how does he get drunk?

[kaijyuu]

Great news!  I've finally felt something today, while making dinner!

On the downside, the first emotion of the day was sadness.  Ironically, I made it through the onions just fine.  It was the carrots I cried over.

* kaijyuu hugs

[Wrex]

Great news!  I've finally felt something today, while making dinner!

On the downside, the first emotion of the day was sadness.  Ironically, I made it through the onions just fine.  It was the carrots I cried over.

* kaijyuu hugs

* Wrex also hugs

Been there. Tis a bad, bad place.

[Nadaka]

I think I am really really depressed. I don't know quite how to describe it. I've basically lost the ability to do things, things I should do, things I want to do, things I need to do.

I have not been sleeping well, mostly because my family stays up all night watching tv, having conversations outside my door, or fiddling around in the kitchen making a mess.

I have not been eating well, mostly because my family took over "cooking" and are both terrible at it and inconsistent at it.

I have stacks of unopened mail strewn about the floor.

My room is a terrible mess.

I have not watched tv in months.

I went months without playing video games, ive had a bit of a revival with FTL and CounterStrike GO, but even that little distraction is keeping me from doing anything.

I cant even really say that all I do is work, eat and sleep.

The only thing I do reliably anymore is work.

I spent 6 hours working on my room yesterday and looking at it, its an even bigger mess.

I have a house full of people here and I am lonely as hell.

fuck.

[Pnx]

Yup, sounds like depression alright.