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[Vector]

I am terribly sorry if I offended anyone, especially those who stayed silent on their thoughts regarding my post. That was not my intent. When I went back and read what was written with a clear mind, I was horrified by my own lack of judgement regarding the content of my writing. I will henceforth attempt to avoid any further offensive content in my posts. I thank all of you who put your faith in me and regarded the incident as a slip of the mind, and again, I apologize to everyone for having to put up with my stupidity.

Bro, you are a cool dude =)  Thanks for the apology.


I am sad today because the hardest part of college right now is forcing myself to do the reading, when it should really be the problem sets that are giving me pause.  On the other hand, I'm now discovering that the greatest volume of work is in reading, and reading well, rather than the homework.  So long as you read well, the homework is kind of trivial.

On the other hand, I really don't like progressing at 10 pages per hour.  It may guarantee that I absorb the information and think a great deal more clearly, but it also makes lecture (when they generally sit there telling us what we're supposed to be getting out of the reading) a hell of a lot more boring.

I miss my irresponsible childhood ;_;

[freeformschooler]

I have only a 60GB bandwidth cap. Dammit, if you're not using all your bandwidth to download large amounts of data for the sole purpose of gaming, you're wasting your life.

This is good advice. You should feel good for giving it. Good enough to change threads, even.

[KaelGotDwarves]

Honestly though, the only person I know who has gone over comcast's 250 gig cap multiple times and actually gotten a letter about it was running like a dozen clients of botting for Maple Story and made $1200 that month.

Vector, PM you once I get back from Tahoe and take care of related work/friend craziness :] Let's find time to hang out again soon - the tea shoppe I like reopened.

[Vector]

Ooh!  Yes, we'll go!


Also, I ended up reporting someone.  That makes me sad, but it seemed like an unsalvageable situation for discourse.

[Mindmaker]

I'm in a good mood, for the wrong reasons.
For how much longer can I rely on video games to fix my mood?

I'd like to skip that remaining month until university.

[Truean]

My dad just went on a 45 minute bigoted rant about how, "We should bomb all the Muslims...." [facepalm]. So basically he's advocating genocide? So very much wrong with this.... He's done this before; it is incredibly saddening and shameful. I don't know how I'm not far more screwed up than I am coming from him. I explained to him the usual sensible things: its only a small minority that are extremists, etc etc etc. Sooner or later, mostly later unfortunately, he runs out of steam.

I'd like to apologize how he should, but won't.

[The Merchant Of Menace]

Ugh.. Feeling really sick now.
blegh, wish I could forget everything..

[Duke 2.0]

I'd like to apologize how he should, but won't.

 If it's in a state one would call a rant I don't think they are open to a discussion. Just steam being blown off. If you get in the way of that all you'll get is a face full of steam. And depending on the person their opinions can swing wildly from a crude exaggerated remark to a more sensible reflection of their actual beliefs. I wana say don't worry about it too much, but you are one of those people who are very proactive about things being right. The best I can give is the sympathy of having a difficult father to deal with. I know what it's like buddy.

[Vector]

Low self-esteem.

I don't feel fit to be around people right now, but I'm too damned lonely to do the right thing and close myself off in my room.

[Truean]

I'd like to apologize how he should, but won't.

 If it's in a state one would call a rant I don't think they are open to a discussion. Just steam being blown off. If you get in the way of that all you'll get is a face full of steam. And depending on the person their opinions can swing wildly from a crude exaggerated remark to a more sensible reflection of their actual beliefs. I wana say don't worry about it too much, but you are one of those people who are very proactive about things being right. The best I can give is the sympathy of having a difficult father to deal with. I know what it's like buddy.

Thank you, I do appreciate it.

Low self-esteem.

I don't feel fit to be around people right now, but I'm too damned lonely to do the right thing and close myself off in my room.

You're often a better person than I am Vector, so "the right thing," isn't a world lacking you. I do hope you somehow feel better. Unfortunately, well wishing is all I can offer.

[Vector]

Yeah, sorry.  And thank you.

I don't know what's wrong with me.  It's one of those days where I don't feel like me, and I'm so angry at these problems because I don't have to even think about them.  The answers are already locked in my heart, even when I've never seen then before.

I hate that feeling.  I like it when mathematics feels like a thing exterior to me that I'm discovering with a friend, not like I'm looking down and it was already there because I'm not a person, I'm mathematics.

I wish I had more people I could talk to about this, personally, friend-to-friend, without feeling like I'm crazy.  But when I talk to someone, inevitably they feel far away.  So I think "Why am I such good friends with mathematics and I can't get anywhere close to people?  This isn't the way things are supposed to go."

I need a person living in me to keep me sane =/

[freeformschooler]

Yeah, sorry.  And thank you.

I don't know what's wrong with me.  It's one of those days where I don't feel like me, and I'm so angry at these problems because I don't have to even think about them.  The answers are already locked in my heart, even when I've never seen then before.

I hate that feeling.  I like it when mathematics feels like a thing exterior to me that I'm discovering with a friend, not like I'm looking down and it was already there because I'm not a person, I'm mathematics.

I wish I had more people I could talk to about this, personally, friend-to-friend, without feeling like I'm crazy.  But when I talk to someone, inevitably they feel far away.  So I think "Why am I such good friends with mathematics and I can't get anywhere close to people?  This isn't the way things are supposed to go."

I need a person living in me to keep me sane =/

That was awfully poetic. If you do find yourself alone again, even now, you could certainly try your hand at poetry. Maybe like a self-discovery thing.

[Bauglir]

I wish I had more people I could talk to about this, personally, friend-to-friend, without feeling like I'm crazy.  But when I talk to someone, inevitably they feel far away.  So I think "Why am I such good friends with mathematics and I can't get anywhere close to people?  This isn't the way things are supposed to go."

I need a person living in me to keep me sane =/

If you need someone to talk at, I can lend an ear. Although. That probably won't help, since I don't know enough about any of the things that you're occupying your time with to participate on an intellectual level, and between being so far away physically and being so terrible at projecting emotion vocally I probably wouldn't be able to lend anything empathy-wise and would just exacerbate the feeling-far-awayness.

...Dammit, self, you are the worst at pep talks. NEEDS MORE UPLIFTING. brb gonna grind my friendship skill.

In unrelated news, my throat has got worse despite the garlic tea! So now I'm attempting to control the symptoms with orange juice, lemon-lime soda, and menthol lozenges. Oh, sweet menthol, you are the best chemical right now.

[ChairmanPoo]

If you need someone to talk at, I can lend an ear.

Friends! Romans! Countrymen! Lend me your ears!

[quinnr]

I just sent a message to some girl who followed me all last year/flirted/confessed love for me. (E.g. she joined my anime club and sat in the same desk as me. I'd been going to this school for maybe 4 months.)
 
I meant to tell her to go away and break her heart.
I'm apparently very bad at breaking hearts.